16 Things You Ought 2 Know Bout me....

1. People say I'm such a snob ... but actually I'm just cold and have problem communicating with people for the 1^st time. As you get to know me, you will realize I am just a goof ball like everyone else.

2. I used to be a tomboy that dislikes being "doll-up", but now I LOVE it! Well let’s just say I'm a girl that loves PINK now & dressing up is part of being a girl.

3. I can be such a Bitch when I’m in a bad mood and lash out on people.

4. I might portray myself as tough, independent and serious on the outside, yet I’m just a doted girl that like to be pampered and yes soft at heart.

5. I don’t wanna be thin, I just wanna be a new healthy me and appreciate my body now. Embrace it and not running from it.

6. I have a thyroid problem. But I’m so glad it I finally able to balance my TH level.

7. I use to think I have weight problem but I realize I have Love issue ---> Love of myself. So I am embracing myself one day at a time... baby step!

8. I love speaking up my mind and quite talkative as well. But at times it didn’t hurt to be hypocrite and play your card right.

9. Love may come softly and I do believe every girl deserves a prince charming, but for now, I’m not seriously searching one and if it happens, it happens. All I need to do is dive in the open sea and swim with the barracuda.

10. I’m sick and tired pretending to be happy all the time in which I’m not. Everybody deserve a bad day here and there.

11. I love my family yet at times I find them to be amazingly annoying. Well, you can hate them but I know they will always there for me in times of need. So …muah…muah…muah to them all.

12. I love my friends to bits; they are like my extended family. I give my trust and loyalty to them. But once I am cross, you will never see nor hear from me again.

13. I love scaring and surprising people, it's soo funny and it crack me up all the times. But the irony is that I scare easily.

14. I take Oprah Winfrey as my 2^nd God…hohoho.. Who wouldn’t right! I just love her show.

15. I will like to take on exercise as my healthy regime yet I found myself sleeping through the day. Hahaha… so lazy laaa…! Still, I need to put as my 1^st priority!

16. I wanna do my 2009 differently. That is to be more healthy and happy me. In that way, I might able to enjoy my life more.

Blogging ...a waste of time ?

My cousin just complained to me the fact that I love to blog a lot, he thinks that I am wasting my time and think its rubbish. I am offended by his remarks. I guess some people can be quite the opposite and rude. As in his case, everything that didn’t make money will be view as a waste of time. Urgh…. OK…. Whatever! I guess me and him have a different type of approach and perspective in life. So I can’t blame him being a hater and ignorant bout blogging! People are like that and yes Ignorance is a bliss.


I love to blog since I find writing my thought and mind can be refreshing and a way to communicate what I feel inside. Most of the time, verbally transmitting my mind and thought seem to be hard for me and at times I am lost in translation. I know not everyone will read my blog, so what! I love blogging and I don’t care if nobody read it, just as long as I can see and read it in my blog, it is fine by me. Argghhh….. I guess I should focus on my other passion that is food review. I do love eating and I love going to different restaurants just to try a variety of foods and drinks. Nice, think I should put that into action …... sooon!

New Year

2009 is finally here and congratulation to all for becoming older and surviving the 2008! Hopefully this year will be a new beginning for all that just freshly starting out and get what you all wish for. Anyhow since we are on the subject of New Year, everyone must have their own New Year resolutions to be accomplished. At this point of my life, I am torn between Money and Career or Love. But then I decided on Money and Career as I want to have a stability in my life and capable of providing for myself or being self-sufficient! As for Love, I already given up on that long time ago and I guess no need to put my full attention to it now, plus if it happens, OK, but if it didn’t so be it, it’s not the end of the world! Anyway, the need to get a job seems to be the most important thing now; I do hope this New Year I can be accepted to work as a teacher in the government school. If that really happen I can surely say à I made it!

Argh…. So much pressure for the New Year! I hope this year will be a prosperous year for me and since I am greedy little pig … I want everything that I wish for to come true. But of course only talk will bring me nowhere, yet with efforts and my will power it should open new door of opportunity. Aiya! Life seems to be very harsh and tiring these days and I hope I can survive it! More power for the new graduates!

Christmas Celebration 2008

Christmas this year was soooo fun and lovely. Like I mentioned before in my blog that this year we are going to have a quiet celebration, yet I was definitely wrong! There were plenty of parties and houses to go. I truly was in and out of my head with all the food. It was a definitely a FATTening Season for me, honestly I can visually see my tummy extended few inches and gained extra kg along the way!! Duh!!


Anyway, being in Sipitang kinda soothing my emo a lot as I feel rejuvenated and at ease with the atmosphere. It was good to meet new but even more fun to meet all my old friends and meeting up with ‘em just brings back all the memories! Plus, catching up with them was so soulfully fun; we talked out loud and laughing out loud like nobody business… Hell, it’s been so long that we all manage to sit together, just talking and surely it was a fun day. I’m glad we are still the same and can talked like we did few years back and I love every bits of my times with them. Still, changes can be seen in most of them. Some already have their own career, extra responsibilities towards their family as well as husband, have their own fashion sense, either way all looking wonderful and fabulous. I can actually see we are all quickly turning into young women with lots of wisdom, courage and already in right path of life. Wow, shocking yet truthfully an eye opening for me. I guess I can fully admit it now that I must STOP goofing around and take my responsibilities seriously. Huh, what a life! Duh! The funny thing about catching up is asking whether or not we have bf or not. Hahahaha, simply Malaysian way of saying “you need to have someone to be admitted to the society”… It is quite funny to see them guessing whether I have someone stash somewhere in KK…. Hahaha



Also, this season everybody is bringing somebody to meet and greet the family. Unfortunately, our family is the only one still failed to bring someone back. Ahahaha… Watching my big sister being asked the common question “where her BF is?” That was so funny and priceless watching her facial expression changes …. As for my mum, she was surprise to see her 2 daughters and son are drinking liquor. I think she still have thought of us as a child, child that doesn’t know anything about drinking. As she saw us mixing and drinking the all the liquor, her mouth was wide open. But for my dad, his action was unassuming and he was OK with that (he is a cool dad). I guess we are good at hiding stuff s like that from both of their knowledge. Basically, most parents still consider their child to be a child forever even though most of them are grown ups already. Parents are like that, their need to care and protect their children are so in them, that most of them still have the tendency to micro manage their child’s life. Oh well, it is good to have that extra care and benefit from our parents from time to time. They are like our safety blanket that always pulls us together no matter how we wish to take it off.

Just Goofing Around.... Again

Pics from Church

Pics from Family Dinner

Pics during the Wedding

Kumon and Me

2 weeks ago, I went 4 interview for Kumon. Kumon is actually a self learning center that originated from Japan.....yadda..yadda... It is interesting to see child as young as 3 years old able to read, good job! Basically, my friend recommended me for the interview as I was unemployed and freshly graduated, I guess this is one way to gain working experience.

Btw, during the interview I manage to do all the Dont's part by stuttering here and there, I can feel myself sweating of nervousness and yes I did not do my research about Kumon. Well, thankfully I read the plat and can answer few of her questions. Instead of talking bout the facts, I just wing it. I also commit mistake by saying my expected salary is RM600-RM800. That was stupid of me and I regret it now and I realize if I were paid in that amount, surely I am underpaid, no wonder she accept me straight away. I guess I was totally green and new to the working force. Lesson learned and next time I will be more prepare. Hmm... I do hope I can score in my upcoming test to determine how much I will receive as my salary and hopefully get more than what I expected. I need the extra cash to pay my PTPN and support myself. Well, Il be starting my new job this 30/12/2008 and hopefully things will work well.

PS: I do hope I can stay committed and interested in my new job!

Be a Man

What does it mean being a man? Does it mean he need to be in power, take control and take charge in all the things he do, capable of managing his life accordingly, strong in a sense of his personality, cunningly smart, firm, steadfast and able provide for himself as well as the people around him.

But something that really confuses me is the fact how a man posses so much power in his work and he control a department of staffs and is consider to be on top of his game could be so undecided in terms of his personal life and family. In my opinion, he should take a stand and take charge of his life. Between the love towards his families and love for his wife and son… he should therefore take a side and stick to it. No matter how hard it may be, just stick to it and hopefully things will work out well. It’s just a waste of energy by lying to both sides and even harder to carry such burden alone. I mean he went back and forth to his wife‘s home claiming he went to see friends which is obnoxious. I mean we are not blind to neither see nor realize he is in fact gone to see his wife. It is just as stupid watching commuting from his wife’s home and here (my cousin’s home). I mean if he still loves his wife, just go back and settle all the dirty laundry. I know it is hard, but it is harder for him later if he did not take a stand now! Be a MAN and take your stand now!

Lately, I saw an alarming pattern of him. Not only did he come back in the early morning, he also came home so wasted…. I mean so drunk. What’s up, how did he turn to be an alcoholic and a drunk , I guess after being let out of the cage, he is finally able to do things when he was a bachelor. Still, it is unhealthy habit and I do wish he will change for the better. I do wish all the best for him next year and hopefully he’ll get through this. -> (so in the forgiving mood)-> (I blame the spirit of Xmas!)

Before I 4get, I met his wife this afternoon. As we were shopping in CKS, my cousin saw her and instantly calls me. I then saw her as both of us were shopping in the same lane. We came across each other, but manage to stay as stranger. Honestly at the exact moment I realize I wasn’t as angry as I initially did. I mean meeting her and knowing what she done really sparks and deepen my hatred toward her yet I realize she is a woman with agenda. The more I hate her, the more she will come on top. Oh well, it is a waste of my time and energy to be bother by her stupid child play. But I do like to make fun her and of course I do have a kick on it.

Either way, Merry Xmas to all and Happy New Year!