My dream

I used to have a dream of being a politician / be involve in politic directly. Yet, seeing how things have gone through especially the political scene in Malaysia, it did scared me. Literally I prefer to stand on the sideline and just be a cheerleader ... with a brain la of course.


But as time passed and the world go around, I realize I want to be a teacher / an educator to the young minds......chewah.....shaping the young generation into a breed of useful, practical and visionary people also my dream job...Hehehe! At the same time, I also love writing and I wish I have the opportunity to learn or take courses of writing . Writing and expressing my feeling into words is also one of my passion and it would be good for me to learn the right way of writing. So that, I might improve my writing skills and my use of words.

Well... lets hope for the best! 2009 here I come....!

Hmmm..... Life's like that

The other day, my brother and sister teased me as I keep on repeating that I am deprive of love! They find it funny and try their best effort to poke fun of me! I was embarrassed by that... OMG! The situation started when my lil brother was all lovey-dovey --> apparently he has a GF & that is why la he was all weird like that! .... And I open my big, bad mouth & flatly say I am deprive of LOVE!!! How dumb was I, it was like standing in the middle of a war without any weapon at hand and totally like a sitting duck for them. Their combination really silent me up and I am not usually the quiet one, most of the time I do put a great effort in fighting back even though I know I might lose! This time, hands down I was defeated.

But then it did hit me back, I realize that I always take single as a lonely number, it is like I’m portraying being single to be the saddest part of being a human. Gosh how shallow can I be. I think I am every bit of human, capable of feeling the loneliness, sadness, anger & frustration…..in every single way. At times, I feel it is better to be 2 than 1, at least you feel you have safety net beside you and the sun is shining brightly. Well, as if! I guess my Asian tradition is finally caught up with me and I believe I was stung by the wedding daze that I had attended recently. In a way, it did alter my perspective about single-hood.

Looking at my big sis, she definitely knows how to hold her ground for the base of single-hood. But it tends to be like that after a bad breakup and who could blame her to go “career woman”. I would, but then I am currently stuck in a dead end job and I wish I could put my passion into it. So good luck for me…..yeah!

Either way, I learned a thing or two from my sister’s and brother idiotic and stupid remarks. The fact that I need to embrace my single-hood with head held high instead of mopping around like a sad puppy.

Oh well, life is like that and now I am baby stepping to my first goal of being single ---> which is to take it proud and confident as well as make peace with it. I guess TWO might seems to be the perfect number, yet at times being the single one out does not seem all that bad! It just a matter of perspective and two idiotic siblings keeping you on your toe! Duh!! If anything that I am currently deprive of, it have to be my Good Night Sleep.... !

My Family

The other day, I watched “My Big Fat Greek Wedding” shown at 8TV. That was fun and it did hit home as my cousin said watching the movie reminded her of our own big and loud family. I do agree with her, except the spitting part la of course. Our might curse, scream / shout at each other, yet we are not the spitting type especially towards each other. Hahaha ….


Well, my families are big ad loud. We always talk and laugh out loud, so funny, but that what we are… just bunch of talkative and loud bunch of people. I do love the moment when all of us gather in one roof eating and just talk whatever topic that comes into mind (as long as you don’t talk about borrowing money – that’s another ball game!). Anyhow, love that moment and I miss those moment. Oh well, there will always be next wonderful Christmas and Chinese New Year or anyone of us in the family getting marry around this year. That should be interestingly fun and funny! Basically, families are those bunches of obnoxious and crazy people that you hope to avoid from time to time, yet at times, you needed them to keep your foot on the ground and keep you stay connected.

Half of the Families ( 2 many 2 put inside here)

Survey...

[01] Are you currently in a relationship?

no

[02] Have you ever been given a rose?

no.. but does card with picture of roses count….

[03] What is your all-time favorite love story movie?

Love Truly & Never been Kissed

[04] Are you in love right now?

no.. but i hope 2.. someday…not 2day la of course

[05] Do you believe that everyone has a soul mate?

I think so!

[06] What's your current problem?

Damn UNITAR haven’t release my final result for Sem In Edu

[07] Have you ever had your heart broken?

huhu.. yes!

[08] Your thoughts on online or long distance relationships?

Online NO, distance rltnship, done it experienced it & hate it.

[09] Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?

I think so, but then I realize we better off as friend … friends with benefit ..of course …hahaha

[10] The person you're with right now,do you want to spend your life with?

My family …of course la….. Other than that, nobody special in particular.

[11] How many kids do you want to have?

2 ( 1 boy + 1 girl ) ..... Family planning kunu...

[12] What is/are your favorite color/s?

Pink and Green

[13] Who is your celebrity crush

Shia LeBeouf

[14] Do you believe you truly only love once?

No la every1 deserve to try it more than once, so that it helps us to differentiate between the ugly frogs to our charming prince.

[15] Imagine you're 40 & your spouse just died, would you get re-married?

It depends whether I am stable enough or do I have kids… Either way love come when we least expected. So never say no…only time might tell.

[16] Do u believe in love at first sight?

Oh yeah

[17] What song do you want to be played at your wedding ?

Secondhand Serenade (fall for you) …. Any kinds of song, as long as it resemble the romantic-ness of the Wedding.

[18] Do you like anyone?

Currently yes.. I like anyone, as long as they are with smile and humour.

16 Things You Ought 2 Know Bout me....

1. People say I'm such a snob ... but actually I'm just cold and have problem communicating with people for the 1^st time. As you get to know me, you will realize I am just a goof ball like everyone else.

2. I used to be a tomboy that dislikes being "doll-up", but now I LOVE it! Well let’s just say I'm a girl that loves PINK now & dressing up is part of being a girl.

3. I can be such a Bitch when I’m in a bad mood and lash out on people.

4. I might portray myself as tough, independent and serious on the outside, yet I’m just a doted girl that like to be pampered and yes soft at heart.

5. I don’t wanna be thin, I just wanna be a new healthy me and appreciate my body now. Embrace it and not running from it.

6. I have a thyroid problem. But I’m so glad it I finally able to balance my TH level.

7. I use to think I have weight problem but I realize I have Love issue ---> Love of myself. So I am embracing myself one day at a time... baby step!

8. I love speaking up my mind and quite talkative as well. But at times it didn’t hurt to be hypocrite and play your card right.

9. Love may come softly and I do believe every girl deserves a prince charming, but for now, I’m not seriously searching one and if it happens, it happens. All I need to do is dive in the open sea and swim with the barracuda.

10. I’m sick and tired pretending to be happy all the time in which I’m not. Everybody deserve a bad day here and there.

11. I love my family yet at times I find them to be amazingly annoying. Well, you can hate them but I know they will always there for me in times of need. So …muah…muah…muah to them all.

12. I love my friends to bits; they are like my extended family. I give my trust and loyalty to them. But once I am cross, you will never see nor hear from me again.

13. I love scaring and surprising people, it's soo funny and it crack me up all the times. But the irony is that I scare easily.

14. I take Oprah Winfrey as my 2^nd God…hohoho.. Who wouldn’t right! I just love her show.

15. I will like to take on exercise as my healthy regime yet I found myself sleeping through the day. Hahaha… so lazy laaa…! Still, I need to put as my 1^st priority!

16. I wanna do my 2009 differently. That is to be more healthy and happy me. In that way, I might able to enjoy my life more.

Blogging ...a waste of time ?

My cousin just complained to me the fact that I love to blog a lot, he thinks that I am wasting my time and think its rubbish. I am offended by his remarks. I guess some people can be quite the opposite and rude. As in his case, everything that didn’t make money will be view as a waste of time. Urgh…. OK…. Whatever! I guess me and him have a different type of approach and perspective in life. So I can’t blame him being a hater and ignorant bout blogging! People are like that and yes Ignorance is a bliss.


I love to blog since I find writing my thought and mind can be refreshing and a way to communicate what I feel inside. Most of the time, verbally transmitting my mind and thought seem to be hard for me and at times I am lost in translation. I know not everyone will read my blog, so what! I love blogging and I don’t care if nobody read it, just as long as I can see and read it in my blog, it is fine by me. Argghhh….. I guess I should focus on my other passion that is food review. I do love eating and I love going to different restaurants just to try a variety of foods and drinks. Nice, think I should put that into action …... sooon!

New Year

2009 is finally here and congratulation to all for becoming older and surviving the 2008! Hopefully this year will be a new beginning for all that just freshly starting out and get what you all wish for. Anyhow since we are on the subject of New Year, everyone must have their own New Year resolutions to be accomplished. At this point of my life, I am torn between Money and Career or Love. But then I decided on Money and Career as I want to have a stability in my life and capable of providing for myself or being self-sufficient! As for Love, I already given up on that long time ago and I guess no need to put my full attention to it now, plus if it happens, OK, but if it didn’t so be it, it’s not the end of the world! Anyway, the need to get a job seems to be the most important thing now; I do hope this New Year I can be accepted to work as a teacher in the government school. If that really happen I can surely say à I made it!

Argh…. So much pressure for the New Year! I hope this year will be a prosperous year for me and since I am greedy little pig … I want everything that I wish for to come true. But of course only talk will bring me nowhere, yet with efforts and my will power it should open new door of opportunity. Aiya! Life seems to be very harsh and tiring these days and I hope I can survive it! More power for the new graduates!