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Sarang He YO

2009-12-30T16:15:00.003+08:00

I was really touched by the celebs stories of their fathers ... So, I wud like to say........

"Dad ... I am sorry for not being a good & obedient daughter. In future, I will in my utmost best repay back all that u have gave me. Thanks for being such an awesome father 2 me... I LOVE You!

Family....

2009-12-29T15:37:00.004+08:00

I just found this story online... So, I think better share it with all of you.....

Baca slowly dan penuh penghayatan.

Aku terlanggar seorang asing semasa berjalan, "Oh maafkan saya, saya tak perasan"

Katanya "Maafkan saya juga, Saya tak nampak saudara"

Kami amat bersopan dan saling menghormati, Kami saling melambai sambil berlalu pergi,

Tetapi di rumah lain pula ceritanya, Bagaimana kita melayan orang tersayang, tua dan muda,
Lewat petang, tika memasak makan malam, Anak lelaki kecilku berdiri di dapur secara diam-diam,
Bila berpaling aku hampir melanggarnya jatuh, Jerkahku, "Jangan buat kacau di sini, pergi main jauh-jauh"
Dia berlalu pergi, hatinya hancur luluh dan beku, Aku tak sedar, bertapa kasarnya kata-kataku,
Sedangku berbaring di katil mendengar musik, Terdengar suara halus datang membisik,

"Bila bersama orang tak dikenali, Begitu bersopan dan merendah diri, Tetapi ahli keluarga tersayang, sering dimarah dan dicaci",

"Cubalah kau pergi lihat di lantai dapur, Kan kau temui bunga-bungaan berterabur",
"Itu adalah bunga-bunga dibawanya untuk kamu, Dia memetiknya sendiri, kuning, biru dan unggu",
"Dia berdiri senyap agar jadi kejutan buat kamu, Kamu tak pernah sedar airmatanya yang datang bertamu", Pada tika ini, aku merasa amat kecil sekali, Airmataku mencurah ibarat air di kali,
Senyap-senyap ku kebiliknya, dan melutut di katil, "Bangunlah, anakku, bangunlah si kecil"
"Apakah bunga-bunga ini dipetik untuk mak? Dia tersenyum, "Adik terjumpanya belakang rumah di semak"
"Adik memetiknya kerana ia cantik seperti ibu, ibu tentu suka terutama yang unggu,
"Maafkan ibu, atas sikap ibu hari ini, Ibu tak harus menjerkah kamu, sebegini,
Katanya,"Oh, ibu, itu tak mengapa, Saya tetap sayang ibu melebihi segala,
Bisikku, "Anakku, ibu pun sayang kamu, dan ibu suka bunga itu, terutama yang unggu,

FAMILY

Adakah kamu sedar, sekiranya kita mati hari ini, syarikat tempat kita berkerja akan senang-senang mendapat pengganti, dalam hanya beberapa hari?
Tetapi keluarga yang kita tinggalkan, akan merasa kehilangan kita sepanjang hayat.
Dan sedarlah, sekiranya kita menghabiskan masa kita kepada kerja, Melebihi keluarga kita, adalah merupakan suatu pelaburan yang tidak bijak.
Bukankah begitu? Jadi apakah maksud yang tersirat?

Tahukah anda makna "FAMILY"? FAMILY = (F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER (I) (L)OVE (Y)OU

" HARGAILAH KELUARGA ANDA "

Blessed Xmas & Happy New Year

2009-12-29T13:41:00.008+08:00

I know...I know... Im so lazy for not being committed in udating my blog from time 2 time... Ekekeke....Anyway.... I know its bit late ... but since I am still in "Christmassy MODE" ... so Merry & Blesssed Xmas ppl of the especially Sabah!!! Hohoho... This year I found myself giving more instead of getting more... Hmmm... Oh well, at least I make my lil bro smile from ear 2 ear....Hehehe... Btw, have you all notice that not so many Christmas ads / commercial on TV... Kinda sad bh, I only saw 1 only ... itu pn iklan KFC... other than that ...mcm TEDA! Sian... mcmnala ini mo jadi 1 Malaysia klu teda keseimbangan dlm distributing commercial yg mempromosikan Christmas / Natal!! Every year pun like this.... !! Dank! Where's the equality!!

Ohya, New Year is around the corner ... are you all prepared for a new beginning of the year of 2010! As for me I'm looking forward for a more positive 2010... I pray... everything will fall into places and I shall succeed in everything I do .... Amen!! SO ppl .............................

~~~ & ~~~

~~~~~Mari kta buang sial bramai2 mandi laut... Ekekeke!~~~~~

2009-12-29T13:38:00.004+08:00

I have a new pet peeves … I call him M****L! I dunno, I cringed on the sight of him and there’s this uneasy feeling swelling up inside of me! Everything that he does just annoys me …. More…. And …… moreeee! Ppl advised me … or perhaps forced me to sort of respect and be nice to him for my sis ‘s sake. I try … God knows .. I try…!! Urgh… I guess it’s a sister thing to feel this way! In addition thanks to him … I got scolded by my family! Gosh, how I was fcking mad & unhappy! Those nasty SMS my sister sent me was truly hurtful. She chooses to believe him and refuse to get my explanation!!! I was surprise as out of the blue they were attacking me, claiming I hurt his feeling through my FB status! Bloody hell… Can they not be so judgmental and sooooooooo bloody dumb! At least get my explanation first, don’t just assume. This is what wrong with ‘them’ sometimes, they take it toooooooooo personally, without even analyzing it and they straight away go for the kill ... For sure la the person yg dorang hentam pn mati kutu la… All of the sudden kena bomb without any warning. But that’s not the real issue here!! The real issue here is that who matter most ~~> Family or the 1 you love (bf /gf)? For me, my loyalty belongs to my family …then…him!!

If “this sort of situation happens”, I will be like an adult call the person and get his / her explanation before jumping into any conclusion and straight away attacking by sending malicious SMS! Words are much sharper than the knife… literally we won’t die by it… emotionally we are scars for life. True they say, we need to forgive and forget… but in this matter how will you move on when the damage had already been done…. “Sorry” might be sufficient enough to heal it..! Put your pride aside!

My advice to that person and her beau … I respect ur choice in choosing him. But be fair la … No matter how much you regard me as a burden.. I am still ur family, we went through a lot… only we understand what..! I would also express my deepest regret on how behave towards you and him. I might be a bitch as in the SMS u sent me… but this bitch had been with you the day you turn 1. Choose ur loyalty wisely and again… BE FAIR! Your world does not revolve around only on him! Here I admitted, I cry when I read the SMS you sent me. But the only thing you say to me when you get the facts was ~~> “mana la ak tau, da yg ckp bg2, mcm 2 kta seri la”! WTF, not even a single “SORRY” from you or him…!!!

I do know by posting this in my blog.. You will get mad and hurt… but I ask you again… “Can you really put the blame on me…??? “ Lately, every time we talk we tend to get aggravated even the littlest thing … So what’s the point of talking when we know we will leave in anger! I’m tired of fighting again & again… ! I know ur a big girl… bigger than me even … so be considerate, thoughtful, be alert on your action and ur words… I will in return do the same.

As for him, I dunno what to say, she’s with you isn’t it. So stop the tantrum and have faith. If you were meant for her… then fate will do the rest. But do play FAIR…Don’t make her have to choose sides! As for me, you get my respect and eventually I’ll get a new pet peeves. Plus, whenever you read something, read it again until it reaches to your brain ~~>process it ~~> analyze it ~~> react!!

Hello there

2009-12-10T11:08:00.003+08:00

Ya ... I know...its been a while since ly last~~last~~last updates... Kinda occupied with lots of things 2 do, things still yet to be done & stuffs still stuck in my head...! Duh, that's life isn't it...with all its glory and troubles (well, they do come in package).

Btw, I want to share something which I found to be interestingly entertaining. I simply love it. It is actually a beautiful stop motion film made by the brilliant Carlos Loscano. I guess deep down everyone simply longing to be love or be in love. Yess, life can be so lonely sometimes and friends might be nice yet it doesn't compensate the longing rooted deep in our soul. As for me, I've been single for quite sometimes and always close my heart from any advances by guys ... in away this stop motion film really bringing back memories of yesterday ... "though he might be gone from my life, why should I punish the rest for one person's mistake". I believe its time for me to open myself up and just be happy. Hahaha... Any taker (lmao)...??? So ppl enjoy & don't get teary on me now...

This is courtesy of Youtube & if u r interested feel free to view Carlos Loscano page at ~~> http://vimeo.com/carloslascano

Selamat Hari Raya

2009-09-19T11:23:00.011+08:00

Just want to wish all the Muslim around the world ...Selamat Hari Raya @ Eid ul-Fitr... and Maaf Zahir Batin. Drive safely to your hometown (Ingatla orang tersayang)! Remember to give some "Duit Raya" to the kids .....Again, Have a lovely Hari Raya celebration and enjoy yourself!

Niway, I personally can't wait to go for "Rumah Terbuka" / Open House around my kampung ... Which means ~~> Good Food + Good Campany = Good day ! Yummy~~mummy!! Can't wait to have a marathon of eating!!

Park Jaebum (Jay Park) Fan Song - Waiting For You

2009-09-18T16:58:00.002+08:00

I guess fans of 2Pm is emotionally dying slowly due to Park Jaebum's decision of leaving 2PM. It definitely rock the K-Pop world and Hottest everywhere just won't be the same.

Honestly, this is the 1st time that I take interest in Korean boyband such as 2Pm. You see, Jay is actually a leader for 2PM and due to recent controversy, he decided to leave 2PM and return back to USA!! (For further details, you all can google it) It is sad - sad thing as I love 2PM. What more can I say, I love watching their crazy antics in Wild Bunny and seem genuinely enjoying themselves. Plus, their song and dance was simply awesome! It is a shame that a simple act of ignorance will turn a person's life upside down. Either way, I am hoping for his comeback to K-Pop. I do Have FAITH on Jay!

Btw, here is a song + MV made especially for him. It was simply heartfelt and truly nice effort from the lovely fan.

You're a loser, Time to Become a Winner

2009-09-18T15:46:00.004+08:00

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Time to make big changes and if you want to see big changes in your life then start by making BIG CHANGES. Do something that has tangible results today. Do you have a messy apartment, house, or bed room? CLEAN IT NOW. Clean it perfectly and don't stop till it looks like it belongs in home and garden magazine. Do you still live with your parents and you're 25 or 45? Put together a plan where in 1 year you will have you're own place and be self sufficient (I would suggest asking your parents for advice, or even better, have them hold your money for you because you can't save money worth a damn). Also, start getting some sort of therapy or see a life coach. You are really down on yourself about something and you aren't quite sure what it is. Once you figure it out you will be the type of winner you see yourself as and it will happen a lot quicker then you think! In order to become a better person than you are right now you need to be proactive in moving forward with your life. Find a better job... What ever you do, though, don't go back to college, because that will give you an excuse to stay in your current situation. Travel somewhere, the simplest trip to someplace other than anywhere near where you live will help inspire you, even if it's just to spend a few weeks in a new town a few hours away. Time to make something of yourself and there is no better time then now!

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These words really HIT me big! I feel like tons of bricks just fall flat on my face! Gosh, that’s so sad and I do agree wholeheartedly for all of it!

I believe I need to take responsibility of what happening around me, well instead of blaming and bitching about my life, I should be bold and brave enough to make a change. I need to change myself especially on how I view the world and myself as a person! Yup, its time to make a change in my life and progress forward as well as be POSITIVE! Like they always said, when life gives you lemon, you make lemonade...!! Lalala.......

Nevertheless, I am looking forward my a new prospect in life! Yup, I do believe I can... YES, I CAN! Wish me luck!! :) Hope for the best!

WTF!!!

2009-09-09T16:24:00.005+08:00

I jz read this news article straight from Yahoo.com.! This is so outrageous and a bit too extreme! I mean c'mon la people, it is good to be patriotic and all, yet to attack Malaysian students who happen to study there is nothing to be proud of! There this thin line between patriotism and being to extremist!!

Honestly a mistake had been made in the clip and both parties had actually step up and appologised personally and globally for it!! Moreover, there is a reasonable explanation behind this unfortunate mistake and still why are people being ignorant about it!!! Why the anger! I don't understand & honestly I don't get it, are people over there are so hateful towards Malaysian? Whatever it is, this really make me juz want to postpone my trip there!!

Either way, I love being Malaysian and proud to be 1! 1 Malaysia !! Much love to both nations.... and I believe ... its better to make love ... not WAR!!!

Btw, here is the extract from Yahoo.com!!

JAKARTA, Sept 8 (Bernama) -– The Malaysian Students Department here has advised Malaysian students in Indonesia to take care following reportedly rising anger among a small group of people over slanderous reports by the media of late.

The department has sent an SMS message to advise all Malaysian students to avoid using Jalan Diponegoro here.

The anger among the small group of people seems to have reached a serious stage following recent media reports and visuals of more than 360 people having registered as volunteers to "crush" Malaysia.

Today, a group calling itself "Benteng Demokrasi Rakyat" (BENDERA) threatened to use sharpened bamboo on Malaysians using Jalan Diponegoro here.

It was reported that 50 members of BENDERA armed with these "spears" forced people using the road to show proof of their identity with the intention of detaining anyone who was Malaysian.

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STUDENTS-ADVICE 2 (LAST) JAKARTA

This act of taking the law into their own hands was reported in the local online media, including detikcom.

In one incident previously, rotten eggs were hurled at a house rented by Malaysian students of Gadjah Mada University in Yogyakarta by a group of demonstrators comprising local undergraduates who were angry at Malaysia for having allegedly "stolen" the Pendet dance which originated from Indonesia's Bali island.

Following that issue, which was fanned by the local media and linked to past issues, several groups of Indonesians demonstrated in front of the Malaysian embassy here.

Malaysia stated that it had not "stolen" the dance for a video clip tourism promotion, which was actually produced by a private company based in Singapore, but the explanation seemed to have fallen on deaf ears.

The okezone website reported that BENDERA had conducted checks on more than 100 people using Jalan Diponegoro.

Detikcom reported that no Malaysian had used that road and that the checks, which were to have been conducted for one hour, ended just after 30 minutes.

LIfe

2009-09-01T04:03:00.002+08:00

As August came to an end ... I do wonder what September might bring... and all these while I've been putting such a brave face ... finally anxiety & all the worries sink in... Urghh... How I dreaded this part of being human....

Well... I hope there will be more happy post to come after this....!

Hmmmm

2009-08-09T17:17:00.003+08:00

I know.... I know...its been so long since my last update... Well, what to do since no Streamyx in my aunt's new place .. tpaksa la tahan hati mo log in ...

Let me see.... what's new in my life right now...

I am quitting my job!!! Dunno what is my next step, but I do hope everything will go well.... eventually! I guess, I am just so bloody tired working there...emotionally and financially drain, plus my heart is not there. I guess, when you come to a point where you hate the job, why stay.... just leave & move on.
Yesterday I went for my PTD Gred M41 Test... Gosh that was draining as it took a day to complete. Imagine, the test was divided into 5 Section (A,B,C,D & E)... so I have to sit in the HOT classroom from 9am until 4.15pm... but we do have our rest though. Anyway, I think I did ok with my test with exception of the Math's part. Oooo...Emmmm...Geee... I was totally confuse with the Math questions and the worst part we could not use calculator to calculate! Bloody tiring, dahla ak ni bit "bingung" in Math and they have to make it pretty challenging by telling us to use our minds to calculate...dengan bijaknya ak mgira smbil "menembak" jwpn...!! Ekekeke.... It is also interesting that I have to do a 300-500 words of Malay Composition. Tp terer jgala ak mhentam using my sort of broken Malay. I even asked Fiona what is cinema in Malay....buduss... !! Yet, I do hope in some weird Universe way, AKU LULUS!!! Lalalala..... Oh heck....!!!
Hate drama...especially silly drama unfolding in my life.... I just need to move on and be positive.... God give me strength to be brave & patience.
The best is yet to come.... Finger cross... I believe ... rezeki datang dari DIA and not from People....!
I am having cramps rite now... adeh!! Love being a woman...yet this pain is killing me....softly!

Being 2nd

2009-06-08T19:21:00.005+08:00

Few weeks ago I saw an argument between a son and a mom… which cause the son trying to push the mom and end up the mom storming away. It was something you wish you didn’t see in a Sunday afternoon. What a scene, I was dumbfounded seeing how rude the son was and I wanted to hit the son who happened to be my nephew straight in head. But, suddenly it hits me, back when I was at his age I was no difference and I get this strange feeling of deejavu.

Growing up I wasn’t actually a poster kids that parents are proud of. I had this big curly hair, my skin was quite dark back then~~> mostly due to the constant outdoors game with my besties. That was fun, going in and out of my kampong doing everything dangerous and straight up stupid! No wonder my mom always scolded me for always coming home late at night! Well, what can I say, I was naughty, headstrong, and most of the time rude compared to my other 2 siblings. Hehehe!

Going through adolescent, I struggle a sense of belonging as the second child of the family. I think being a second child really been a struggle for me. You see, I wasn’t always the favourite nor was I the loveable ~~> compare to my older sister and my youngest brother who have their own perks. As for me, I love to view myself as the odd one out, always up to no good, causing trouble, rioting and rebelling towards my parents. I feel like no one believes in me and no sense of belonging whatsoever. In order to be heard, I always do things against my mom’s order and everything that she said no. I guess now looking back, it was totally rude of me, yet it was just the best thing to do as a second child of the family to be heard.

But, I am proud of myself for being able to keep my head straight ----> I guess I wasn’t as bad as I thought so plus I think I wasn’t brave enough to destroy myself completely.

There are few things that I had done which I am not proud of; such as my fair share on drugs (which drugs …let I be a secret 4 me). In my defense, I was young, stupid and I fall for the peer pressure to belong in a group. Plus, back then or probably until now, drugs are something that you can get easily and cheap throughout my hometown and I myself have a friend who was a pusher, in which she was kind enough to give me a try on her product!! I still remember vividly the first time I tried on it, felt like I was in cloud nine, so blurry yet soooo GOOD! I am lucky to realize that I was an IDIOT to do it in the first place, if not I might end up being an addict!

I realize friends play an important role in my life back then. For they are my comforts and people that I share the common bond. I have all spectrum of friends that I could hang out, they made me feel belong and safe. Unfortunately, like anyone else I fell for peer pressure and start doing things that I thought by their nature was cool and fun, by then I realize I was far off from where I was. Slowly over time, I lost my senses and rationality.

At the same time, I was doing all of that stuff just to get away from my family, somehow I felt like I needed my own space and being with them suffocate me. Truly, I felt lost between my siblings and I realize I couldn’t compete with them in the race of affection from my parents. Like they said when you couldn’t get any affection from home you search elsewhere outside. As for now, I could care less, with or without my parents I am still going to live my life because this is my life, my only life, so why do I allow silly thought destroying of what I have at this moment. But, I am happy to say that my family and I are at a good place now, we have a weird way of loving each other yet we are happy in our own weird way.

I believe growing up we all face all types of struggle only you yourself understand. The fact that we rely solely on your friends in order to deal with the struggle, truly they feel like heaven for you, regardless whatever impact they have on you. When you feel like no one understands you and you feel left out, friends are the one you go for the TLC instead of parents. Might I say, they don’t understand us like a friend does! Well, that was what I am feeling when I was going through that phase of adolescent!! Back then, I do care about my family yet I care more for my friend… shallow right… well being a teenager is like that and eventually it does grow out of us over time.

Thinking back, I realize I was young and dumb, I couldn’t grasp the thought of me losing my senses and done all of those senseless things. I guess that’s the process of growing up, trial and error! In some way, I do feel I understand what my nephew going through and all he need right now is affection, attention, the need to be heard as well as a friend to listen. But hey, who am I to judge anyway!!

~~~> "Life is just one damned thing after another" - Elbert Hubbard<~~~

My sweet lil brother

2009-04-15T20:55:00.004+08:00

As I saw you today, I feel the sense of relief seeing you all grown up looking so big and tough on the outside, yet I know deep down you will always be my baby brother that soft at heart. It is like in a blink of my eyes, everything about you changed. I saw you are slowly being oh so sarcastic, making jokes that weren’t so funny, nasty remarks or cursing here and there…. Sadly at times I found you to be a jerk and a rude little karabau!

I don’t know how could my sweet lil brother turned out to be this ‘boy’….. A boy that I sometimes despise and honestly, I just couldn’t figure you out! What happen to you, I miss my sensitive, sweet and loveable lil brother? I do miss the times when we bond, talk, laugh and share secrets together.

All in all, I say this to you my sweet lil brother, it is okay. I love you nonetheless; I am here through thick and thin with you as family stick together. I guess this is a way of you growing up, maturing in your own senses and finding your own true self. I do hope your mind and soul aren’t that tainted by all the negative surrounding that you see and hear in and around KK, as I want you to grow up to be a man, man with manner and knowledge. Till then, don’t grow up too fast … take a little time to look around and God bless you in all that you are.

My unending legacy of "blunders"

2009-04-15T01:13:00.000+08:00

Reading back most of my post in my own blog really an eye opening for me (the owner), I found so many mistakes in spelling, grammar, repetition and punctuation. It was actually embarrassing to see all my blunders laid open for the whole to see and read..! You see, I am not a big fan of proof reading, as I find that part to be boring and strenuous. I had this tendency of not reading back of everything I wrote / type as I find it to be quite awkward. But, I think it usual for all people to have this problem from time-time and I guess just because I have a Bachelor in English does not mean I am good at proof reading. Oh well, at least I am able to convey the message across. I do apologize for all the blunders, slip up or mistakes that you might have detected or found upon reading my posts. But hey, life too short and you can’t always be too damn perfect!! …. If you few comments or critique on my spelling or my grammar ---> feel free to complaint, who know as you proof read my posts; I might as well return the favor back to you. Together we will make or write grammatical posts….. Ho3!

Tomok ---> U roxz at OIAM!

2009-04-14T11:55:00.005+08:00

Watching Tomok performed “Aku Cinta Padamu” last Friday really proved he is the 1 to beat. I was completely entertained by his energetic showmanship and he definitely raises a bar higher for other contestant to follow. I guess he wasn’t all that stupid as last time as you can see he has some music talent that allow him to survive in the entertainment industry. Last time if you had told me Tomok could win the One In A Million, I would have laugh and say “as if”. Now, I believe he deserve to win the competition as his performance has been quite consistent and entertaining every week.

Tomok, came so far from his early year as the front man of New Boyz. Their songs totally boring last time, just hearing his band song in the local radio really make my ear bleed. I also remembered his scrawny, thin stick figure and his ‘balah tengah’ hair ---> definitely not something you go for in a guy. I believe those times only my friend Z*ri** was all over him.

Watching Tomok on TV, really bring back memories of my schoolmate, Z*ri**. Well, the year was 2000 and I was in Form3. At that time, New Boyz was a big hit among the local Malay girls and my schoolmate Z*ri** was one them. She in fact listened and talked nothing but New Boyz everyday. It was quite strange that she could come up with day to day information about the New Boyz and particularly Tomok. She was like an ‘info bergerak’, everyone who knew her, know she could sing the New Boyz songs by heart and kept a diary of her undying love for Tomok, which she carried around school.

Long story short, Tomok eventually replied back to her fan letter and it was the beginning of a funny story. Well, she parade and showed off the letter to everyone in the school and said she was his number 1 fan as Tomok acknowledged her to be one. Surely back then all the girls who was into Tomok was jealous and the boys just got annoyed by her. One of these boys was Helmi. I guess Helmi was particularly tick off by Z*ri**’s antics, so he decided to stole Z*ri**’s diary during recess. Heheheh… He then decided to read the diary page by page to the whole class, we were laughing out loud and make some.... “uhh….ahhh..fewiit….adidih”… noise..! It was so damn funny and yucky at the same time. I know we were so naughty but we were young and keen on making fun of others. As Zuriah walked in the class, she was so damn furious….. What happened next totally go down as SMPO most memorable memories (4 me la)… Bulih-bulih ni 2 ekor budak bkejar-kejaran sampi ke tengah padang, with Zuriah running and yelling at Helmi. Dahla, si Zuriah berbadan chubby and watching her ran across the field was damn hilarious. Bayangkan la, tengah-tengah panas, ujung-ujung time rehat, dorang 2 bkejar-kejaran around the field with both yelling at each other ----> kalah2 dalam filem Kuch Kuch Hota Hai. Everybody around school was totally transfixed their eyes to this evenful event and everyone were chanting either Helmi or Zuriah. What the heck, P&P was disrupted for a while, sampai our guru discipline also turun padang to go after them…. Hahaha… Last2 dorang 2 kena jadi contoh pasangan yang x patut di follow. Helmi was dubbed as hero, while Zuriah was the unlucky heroine; both became a celebrity overnight around the school… Hahaha. The sad thing was that Z*ri** was hit hard after the incident, she become remote, so distant and somewhat revengeful, as I watched tears rolling from her face that day, I realized she was forever changed after the whole incident. Shortly after our PMR was finished, she moved to Labuan, according to her, she wants to start fresh somewhere.

Fast forwards to 4 years later, I met her in Sipitang, she looked so thin and all her extra pounds were gone. She wasn’t the same “chubby and fatty” Z*ri** that I once knew. I don’t know how to explain it, but she was different.

I guess being the “punching bag" of the whole school can cause lots of damage to a person self esteem as well as their personality. I feel bad and guilty for being a part of bully committees. Although I did not do anything harmful to a person back at high school, still being a member of the bully committee really something that was not to be proud of. High school can be crazy and such a roller coaster to everybody and I am lucky to escape it with only few memorable scars. Gosh! !

AF 7 vs. OIAM 3

2009-04-06T17:55:00.006+08:00

Well, I just saw Akademi Fantasia pnya concert... I mean, what a shock seeing both Sabahan contestants got the lowest votes and ultimately kna kick out of AF! Hmm...kesian pla.. skali kena kick 2 orang pla.. Moreover its Sabahan ppl! I thought Sabahan ppl are so into AF7, so what happen now seems to be a sign that even us the Sabahan ppl are getting pretty bored and tired of watching the same old boring Akademi Fantasia.

I mean come on la... the tagline "transformasi" --> apala itu?? I couldn't get my head out of it... Transformasi ... apala yang kena transform, apa yang sa nampk hanyala same old, same old boring stuffs! Tgk psembahn peserta AF7 kali ni really make my ears bleed, mcm tgk ptandingan karaoke….and too bad this karaoke competition will last a few months more and I don't now about you all, but I had, had enough of karaoke singer...! Knapaka plu diwujudkan AF7 ... I guess Astro should spend their money into something that is much more lucrative as they are slowly losing money due to the elaborate production of Akademi Fantasia. I guess they should use the money to revive the already "bancrupt Maestro" and better yet producela album si Mas tu ---> Sian da!! Itu lagi penting ---> to save the entire artist under that management and foresee their career...! Oh well, I guess, they still have more money to burn...!

Lagi 1 yang sa mo komplen la, asal ja sa curi2 tinguk itu Diary AF mesti sa ada nampak students da nangis2! Apala, hal kicil pun mo kepoh2...then bawling their eyes out for stupid & simple matter! Pastu bazirkan masa untuk settle kan the problem..! Kalu la dorang ble btindak productive, cubala dorang bincang mcmna mo improve psembahan buruk / boring, mutu suara and anything which closely related dengan performance on Saturday night! Puas ati jg kta menonton...! Apala ...kebudak-budakan sungguh! I guess, AF is changing from a singing competition to a popularity competition! So mungkin pentingla kali the peserta menangis cam budak!! Kali inila transformasi yang they ol going for…! Less quality more quantity!! Sayang ni, I truly love the previous 1, 2 & 3 pnya AF, after that, it started to go down hill! To much dull gimmick bah!! This season is no difference!

I truly advice all of you to watch the OIAM 3 ---> this one surely won’t disappoint you. Watching the contestants’ talents of singing truly mesmerizing and better yet their ability to play with the music arrangement definitely a plus! You truly feel like it was a concert. There are few favourites of mine in the OIAM 3 ----> our darling from Sabah, Esther (I call her my mum), the not so stupid Tomok (hehehe, he surely prove that he is the 1 to beat) and the dark horse ---> Nine!! Can’t wait for next this Friday… But the thing that I am disappointed is their fashion style, look a bit mumsy (especially the peserta wanita), quirky and most often unflattering to the contestants! They should have pun an outfit suit with the song pnya character. Tapi this fashion stuff, I think AF7 is way better la… Only the girls’ pnya outfit red and white singing the AF anthem ---> plik bh pl itu, plus the guys’ ketara ni wear too much make up..! Blame the black guy who looks so grey!

Semalam..di K. Kinabalu..

2009-04-06T14:49:00.002+08:00

Last night, as me and my cousin went to pick my aunt in the early wee morning hour; I have the opportunity to overlook around K. Kinabalu city through the hill. Even when all the shops or complexes are closed and people are soundly asleep…. The beauty of K.Kinabalu with all the lights illuminating all around and was mesmerizing. At the same time, look oh so peaceful and quiet. The roads were particularly quite and I was bump that I didn’t get to see people racing their cars.

Out the blue, there was this stupid guy driving this red Kenari with plat number SAA 210* K was trying to race with us. I mean cmon la we were driving fast in order to get to our destination faster not to race with you la… Idiot! I guess the poor man’s ego was injured as he couldn’t bear losing to woman’s driver…. Duh… Tulungla...!

Nevertheless, I am missing my night life…back when I was active… Now…. Huhuhu…. B.O.R.I.N.G!! I guess I am on that stage of my life... Living in a rut!!

Confession in S.Heart

2009-04-01T17:50:00.002+08:00

Last Tuesday, I went for my confession in the Sacred Heart church. You see, it was a year ago since my last confession, so I was a bit nervous and anxious altogether. As I wait for my turn I was counting my sins in this 1 year. Miraculously, 5 major sins just cross my head. Ya, I know strange right, only 5 sins… I got to be kidding. Well, that’s the only major sins that manage to come up to my mind. It was quite funny as I was reading the book in trying to memorize the words or procedure of confession. I do feel bit light as my burden of sins somewhat being lifted. I do feel good!

But the things that manage to rain on my parade, simply the attitude of the warden in charge during the confession. Gosh, come on la warden… we are all in the house f God, could you at least be nice, kind and speak in manners and in a nice tone. There is no need to get mad due to some confusion and being a push-over. I don’t mean to be disrespect here but how am I suppose to respect the house of God when its occupants act and behave ill-manneredly.

I guess sometimes just because we are all in the house of God, doesn’t mean that all the people are pure and kind hearted. Well, that is why la when the confession season arrives; you will see a flock of people rushing in and out of the church to confess and I am one of those people.

I realize the wardens are all human with the tendency to get mad easily, yet, couldn’t them be a bit nicer especially in the use of words and actions. We are all civilized people here, so why not act like one. Like the slogan goes “Budi Bahasa Budaya Kita” and we should exercise what we preach….!

But I do pray in the coming Easter, we are all united as one brother and sister in Christ and have faith.

Boys Over Flower (Final Review)

2009-04-01T10:10:00.010+08:00

I just finished watching the last 2 episodes of Boys Over Flower at the mysoju.com. Finally after months of waiting, it comes to the end and I am glad to say I am done with that drama…. Hehehehe…! Now, all I have to wait is to wait for the VCD / DVD out in our local stores.

So far the last 2 episodes were ok and I must say they manage to twist and turn the storyline and I am satisfy with the ending of the drama. Overall, the production team had managed to inject lots of dramatic scene and it is obvious they are trying to keep it fresh and different from the other 2 versions of this drama. Still, nothing totally surprises me watching the last 2 episodes, I guess I somewhat could guess it already and it is nothing different from the last 2 version of this drama.

The thing that I love about the drama’s ending is the fact that Goo Joon Pyo waited about 4 years to finally bend on one knee and purpose to Jan Di. It’s kinda realistic and practical as all of the characters got their own career going on. So, it’s about time. I love the scene in which he bend on his knee and purpose, it is kinda sweet and romantic.

There is also a few scenes that I found a bit hanging and somewhat didn’t click to me. Such as;

1) The kissing scene seems to bit fake and force. It didn’t ooze the feeling of both characters are madly in love.

2) The CPR thing---> eeeh… Surely I think the CPR is not like that. That is not how you revive a person who almost drawn.

3) Whatever happened to least famous character of F4 (Song Woo Bin) ??---> I really wanted to know what path he chooses or his career choices in this drama.

Too bad the 3 stooges who continuously taunt Jan Di during her high school fail to make an appearance … I would love to see them screaming in agony watching Jan Di happily together with Joon Pyo ----> yet unfortunately one of the girl died after committing suicide. So, I guess they decided to cut out the 3 characters out altogether.

The one character that I totally fall for have to be the lovable, cool, sweet and loyal, Yoon Ji Hoo, he is soooo cute, I can just drool just by watching over him. The scene that he cried after failed attempt to capture Jan Di’s heart totally heartbreaking. You just want to hug him and say…. “I am here Oppa” ….. “Sarang nge yeo”. Oh well, only in my own wet dream……. Hahahaha!! ----> Budus.

Well, overall it is an OK drama, (got few high points and few low points), even though, I am not entirely satisfy with it, Boys Over Flower really do showcase what Korean are best for, such as to inject lots of romantic feature, (in which the Japanese version fails), cool gadgets, nice soundtrack, wonderful scenery, lush taste of style and most definitely ….. lots of pretty boys / men that we can ogle with. But, I still do think this Korean version could have done better, I mean, sky is the limit for them, they could have take the bar higher and too bad it didn't go as high as I hope it did.... Hmmmph! Good try though, and I do encourage fans of Meteor Garden, and Hana Yori Dango to watch this drama, well, just to widen your taste ya!

PS: On the other hand, I still prefer the Japanese version though ---> Hana Yori Dango 1, 2 and the movie...!

I wish...I wish!

2009-03-31T01:08:00.004+08:00

This is a tag by sweet-girlicious . As with all tags, here are the rules :~

1. Make a list of what you want on your birthday
2. The list should be 10 numbers
3. Post the image of this award in your posting
4. Give it to 10 friends of yours

My birthday wishes for 2009 :~

Get a steady job with RM2k ++ pay ---> Job that I can utilize my knowledge and ability..!
Less "ignorant, rich bloody son of a gun" people in the world...
Be more passionate about life!
Own a Swift car!!! Oh...puhleeez.....
A trip to out of Malaysia... Philippine, South Korea or N. Zealand ...
A new pair of Transitions spectacles ... I love to own 1!
New dress, new shoe & new handbag ---> Prefer branded 1!
More patience towards people around me and the environment...!
Less talking & more listening!
Socially active.... again.... Urghh... My life currently fill with boredom and frustration.

Oh well... that's my bday wishes... but I insits to add sumore... Hehehe...My blog...my say!... Well, I would like to have an exclusive performance by Linkin Park....which I could meet and greet them..>!! Plus, meet the cast of Boys Before Flower (Korean version)! --> If only wishes can come true... Oh well, dreaming is what we human are best of!

Global Earth Hour

2009-03-28T01:19:00.003+08:00

I just read an article in Daily Express (Friday, 27 March, 2009) about this group / Gerakan is doing a wonderful campaign of promoting the program of “Global Earth Hour”. According to the leader, they are distributing 10,000 flyers for the residential area around Kota Kinabalu. Well, the flyers are about 2 pages, which include all the information about the program and simple illustration about global climate. Good effort in educating K.Kinabalu people about the importance of making a global statement of concern about climate change and to demonstrate commitment to finding solutions.

What bothers me most is the amount of flyers distributed in the process of promoting this cause. ... It is an Earth Hour, isn’t it … Could we at least save the papers for the benefit of trees around the world especially those in Malaysia. I mean the more paper we waste or use, means more trees are going down and the climate surely will go higher. So why not save the paper and find new alternative for spreading the cause of the “Global Earth Hour”! Plus, I don’t think everyone will take their time reading the flyer, even if they do read, what happen after they finish reading? Surely you won’t expect them to save it and there is a high chance it might end up in the trash. Knowledge is power they say, but in this case I don’t think it totally help in educating people about the “Global Earth Hour” by using this method.

But, hey…take it from me…do participate in the “Global Earth Hour”, we might save ourselves another decades of living in this earth before hell break loose…. ! Remember 8.30pm – 9.30 pm ……

Human

2009-03-25T15:00:00.003+08:00

Just the thought of losing someone which is close and dear to us simply makes our heart screaming in pain….. But to really… really loose that person is even painfully heartbreaking and sad. At that exact moment we will then realize how easily life ended these days. Nothing is for certain these days and as human we can only walk our life with the hope that we leave a mark in someone’s life somewhere and that we somehow make a difference in this world. Hopefully, someone might miss us and might remember us just the way we are. Even so, I pray that my love one shall live their life healthily and be content of what they already have.

Honestly, life shouldn’t be this complicated but hey who am I comparing to HIM… I am only a humble dancer dancing the night away until He decides to take me out. Even so, I hope I shall live my life to my utmost best ….. --> ((emo)) <--…..

This totally reminds me a song from the ...

Killers (Human).

I did my best to notice
When the call came down the line
Up to the platform of surrender
I was brought but I was kind

And sometimes I get nervous
When I see an open door
Close your eyes, clear your heart
Cut the cord

Are we human or are we dancers?
My sign is vital, my hands are cold
And I'm on my knees looking for the answer
Are we human or are we dancers?

Pay my respects to grace and virtue
Send my condolences to good
Give my regards to soul and romance
They always did the best they could

And so long to devotion
You taught me everything I know
Wave goodbye, wish me well
You've gotta let me go

Are we human or are we dancers?
My sign is vital, my hands are cold
And I'm on my knees looking for the answer
Are we human or are we dancers?

Will your system be alright
When you dream of home tonight?
There is no message we're receiving
Let me know, is your heart still beating?

Are we human or are we dancers?
My sign is vital, my hands are cold
And I'm on my knees looking for the answer

You've gotta let me know
Are we human or are we dancers?
My sign is vital, my hands are cold
And I'm on my knees looking for the answer
Are we human or are we dancers?

Are we human or are we dancers?
Are we human or are we dancers?

Me and my ...Korean drama

2009-03-23T22:49:00.027+08:00

Here it goes again... me and my Korean drama obsession ...Well; I am currently into this Boys Before Flower -- drama (Korean version). It’s quite interesting watching the same storyline from different versions of countries. You see, I had watched the Meteor Garden 1 & 2 (Taiwan version), Hana Yori Dango 1, 2 & the movie (Japanese version) …. and….jeng..jeng..jeng…now the long anticipated Korean version. Gila ni, I have been following this story from mysoju.com and KBS world (Channel 303) all these while and I can’t seem to get enough of it. I can’t wait for the VCD / DVD to come out. Surely, I will buy it and hopefully my mom wouldn’t find out that I waste my money yet again for some Korean drama vcd…!! Ladida!

Niway, based on the 3 versions, I still like the Japanese version best as I find Domyouji quite funny than Jun Pyo ….! Plus, the Japanese version is more anime like funny and they stick to the same original storyline of the original comic.

By the way, the Korean version also quite good, especially the actors (super-duper cute, handsome and buff up), and actresses (cute and better than the Japanese actresses), at the same time showing off many ‘to-die hi-tec gadget’ ---> my mouth got so watery to see all the gadgets in the drama. Simply to-die for! Oh, did I mention the fashion sense also better than the Meteor Garden, simply fashionably stylo. But, I do wish the actors' acting wouldn't be that visually stiff. There was a few moments when their acting became quite stiff and somewhat unreal....

Anyhow, the thing that I love about Korean drama is mostly they have this capability to inject the romantic aspect in most of their drama that most audiences are so into it. I mean, if the Italian can be regard or portray as the romantic people of the West, then Korean are the romantic people of the East!!

Well,I can't wait for the conclusion of this drama and see the twist they made for the Korean version.... Can't wait..... !! I do hope Gaul and Yi Jung will eventually be together...!!

Yummie....yummy.....

Still, like I mention earlier, I am definitely into the Japanese version of the entire 3 version…. Who doesn’t like the obnoxious character of Domiyoji in Hana Yori Dango, as well as the hilarious, simple and poignant storyline! The only thing that bumps me about the Japanese version is that I couldn’t get the romantic effect from the Japanese version. I mean there are several scene that worth kissing and left nothing but 2 characters hugging it out!

We can't forget the Meteor Garden 1 & 2 ...which started it all! I think I fall for this 1 first before the other 2 come out...! Oh well, happy watching....!

My oh my...!

2009-03-22T13:48:00.006+08:00

I just read this news from Seoulbeats and Yein Jee's Asian Journal - about a young Korean actress died of committing suicide. It is quite strange as currently if you are following everything about Korean Entertainment, you might realize that there is a strings of suicide commits over last year and this year.

Wow... it is disturbing to read that the death of the latest suicidal victim;

" - Jang Ja Yeon - "was beaten and raped" - Jang was initially ruled to have ended her life because of stress/depression, but the situation took a sudden twist following revelation from Jang’s ex-manager, Yoo, that Jang’s suicide was a conspiracy. "

Reading the news simply making me sick, hopefully those who were said to be involve will be take to the court and punish by their wrong doing..... "help bring change in the entertainment industry they desperately need" (seoulbeats) .... I do hope however the deceased shall be revenge and let her soul rest in peace!

Honestly, we are living in a morally corrupt society nowadays... even the entertainment industry seems to be the mere mirror of our society! I guess the entertainment circle can be quite dangerous especially for the newbies these days. My oh my... this make me wonder ... does Malaysian entertainment industry operate same like the Korean entertainment industry??? Oh well... whatever...!

Family Matters

2009-03-09T23:11:00.017+08:00

Here are 2 situations which worth pondering…..

1^st Scenario

Let say, the ship you are riding together with your wife and your mother are about to sink. Unfortunately, the Captain just took the last life jacket and off he went into the sea. You, yourself should be able to save yourself as you can swim, too bad for those 2 as they didn’t know how to swim. So, what do you do? Who would you give your life to save…? Will it be the caring mother who nurtures all your life or the wife who is the mother of your son?

2^nd Scenario

Marriage drama

Wife: Honey, apala ur mom tu myibuk saja hal rumahtangga kita! Your family tu lagi kaki penyibuk, hal rumah tangga kta pn dorang mo kepoh, taula kita macamna mo urus. Btul tak honey?

Mom: Kami bkan sibuk, cma concern about kmu dua pnya well being. Kalu sdh thap halau2 ni, family ada hak masuk campur untuk mdamaikan / myelesaikan mslh… Is it a bad thing trying to help .. I am not here to create chaos, I am not some ALong, I just want to tolong! Kalu itupun x ble... hmmmm....

Husband: ????…bingung…

So husband which words will you choose to listen?

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I have the opportunity to see the drama unfolds and listens to different kind of views from my families. To see my families trying to intervene in hopes to settle the drama as well as teaching the wife a lesson or two about respect for the husband as well as the in laws, truly a heated drama that is worth more than the Sinetron on TV! Yet, unfortunately… niat murni my family kena tolak bulat2 oleh si husband yang juga merupakan our family.

From my point of view, families have their rights to intervene in this particular marriage! I know I am not yet near to be a parent or still being regards as “budak-budak”… however, being 1 of the Brady Bunch, I do feel the heat whether to join the intervention or stand on the sideline. I choose to be the latter; still, I have 2 eyes, 2 ears, 1 mouth and a mind of my own… and that surely why I need to express my mind about this matter. Since I can’t talk to him face to face, at least I could somehow reach him through my blog.

I believe it is unwise for this person to say his family being too “kepoh” and “pyibuk” for trying to help in settling his marriage problem. Auch, that is shockingly painful to hear from his mouth. I mean come on la… There’s a few things that I wish to highlight here;

1. No family will waste their time to ruin the marriage of its members for the sake of revenge or saja suka-suka mo kepoh!

2. The wife need to learn a tough lesson of respect! Respect kepada the mother in laws especially and ya the husband! Saying that the wife “TIDAK PERLU” minta maaf dengan the mother in laws simply a NO-NO! BIG FAT MISTAKE! Gosh!

3. It kills me to see my aunt worries and cry about this matter…! Bloody MONGKAY!

4. I for a fact have no respect towards the wife, sepa suruh kurang ajar to my mum and my aunt… she worth zero in my eyes!

5. Family will always be family… We do stick together…especially when 1 of the members is in trouble. The others will empathize and do whatever they can to help out. But, don’t be too proud to accept the help being offer to settle the matter. You weren’t born alone nor standing alone during your marriage with her. You have your family to back you up, celebrating the joy, grief with you as well as standing beside you in time of your need.

6. Kes men halau-halau ni kes berat tau… ! U need the extra help…... and ya.. u need to wake up smell the coffee!

7. If you want us the family to stay away from your own personal problem…..sure…. Imagine this… When you decided to get marry, is it a one man show or is it a family thing? Who decided to spare their time and come to make the wedding a success, who decorate and cooked for it…? We … the family … who were there … making one of our family dream to be a husband come true….. I guess all that probably forgotten by you… Oh well….!

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In life, there’s a time when we will reach this kind of crossroads. The only difference is the situation, timing, people or places….yet the theme is still the same “Making a choice”. When you arrive at the crossroads, will you be ready to be a man and make the final decision. In this drama, I already seen his choices … and it is outright brainless…! Cmon’ la … it is time to face the music and dance to the music of your heart!

I guess at time we do find it hard to admit that we put our spouses/gf /bf /friends first before our own blood relatives especially our parents in particular. Is it because we find them to be needy, super boring and most of the time interfering our personal space and life. Either way, being too selfish for our own happiness has its own repercussion. When we do realize our own ignorance, it might be all too little too late. I guess watching this drama unfold in front of me really taught me a lesson about the thin line between family (parents) VS our gf / bf / friends. Which 1 should you be prioritizing more? …. Most often we fail to find the check and balance between both subjects. In the end, we put the latter first and neglect our own parent & family!

Oh well, at least I realize marriage is not just about you and me alone…. It is about you, me and both our families as well…! Never overlook the value of family and its roles in our life. Gosh…what a roller coaster life it had been for all of us... ! I do think I am somewhat becoming disrespect of marriage institution... Either way... that's life in the modern world.... Like they say, if you cant take the heat, get out of the kitchen!

By the way, I know it is kinda harsh, but I only express from what I heard and saw.... Whatever happens ...happens... All the best....! Though, I do appreciate the fact that you don't attack me during your drunk episode ... !

PS: This will be the last time I will be talking about “him & his marriage drama” … I am retiring this topic and surely this will leave him at peace…!

B**CHy day!

2009-03-04T00:46:00.004+08:00

Today I had the opportunity to meet a fussy BITCH in Toyota. She came in the form of a mother wearing formal attire, heels and look so stuck up! Her car was so luxurious and expensive and I can’t help of having the urge of carving my initial or even “ABC” on her car. That should be nice and revenge is heavenly sweet, yet unfortunately I did not manage to get the plat number…but I guess tomorrow never dies…only people do.

I guess people ---> especially ‘richy’ people have a way of making normal people look oh so small..! Just bcuz my duty is to teach ur precious daughter doesn’t mean u own me and I need to put 24 7 observation on her alone! Urgh pay more la, then maybe… I suppose parents are all like that… especially the lack of SEX one…! Word of advice f*ck ur husband tonite or every other day / night.. Go ahead enjoy urself, you deserve it as u r so FCuK*** stress and low on orgasm! You know, having sex lowers your stress level and it might do wonders in ur marriage life! I thinkla kan these rich people don’t usually have SEX and the time that they truly have it is with another person…! Duh! No wonder why aunty Bitch look so stuck up!

Parents, next time use your sense of rationale and sensibility, no wonder why your daughter and son grow up to be bunch of bratty and ignorance kids. Like, no regards on other people, especially those who they think do not measure up to their level. Kids do learn best by watching how their parents act and when they see what the parents are projecting, truly it won’t be long for a bad seed to begin sprouting all over the place. Gosh and you thought our education system is terrible … wait till u meet a generation of bitch sprouting for the next future.

Oh well, life does not give you all that you want, and in times we learn that humility and patience is what holding us sane and keep us in toe. Still, most often we lost it and end up being so stuck up in our own world disregarding everything all around us.

And just because you have the money, the job and power, it doesn’t give you the right to act like a Bitch and you might need a dose of humble pill or pie, and probably it might save ur soul from being too ignorance. It also wouldn’t hurt for you to be nicer to others. Someday karma will pay it all back and later you might get the same feeling of being a mother whose daughter being ill-treated by people like you!

In my defense, the bitch mom is seeing the situation from her own eyes with no regards to my explanation. She is so stuck up in blaming and forgets there are both sides to a coin. Hmm…like I said …bitch need a bitch slap from her husband!

Slaving for my K*m** Worksheet

2009-03-02T17:37:00.004+08:00

I just finished doing my K*m** worksheets ---> Honestly I felt more like an idiot rather than a clever and wise girl! I am sick and tired of slaving myself doing all these bloody worksheets just so that my pay or wage “supposedly” being raised.!!! I am currently at Level EII, for me to get that extra RM100 raise, I need to do up to H or I ! Does this job really worth it, I seriously doubt it, yet like I always say, beggar cannot be choosy. I get that being a teacher there you need to master the material first ...yet it feels like someone undermining your ability and your knowledge.....!

Urgh… the anger and frustration are boiling up inside of me! The patience is the one thing that is holding me together. Life surely has its own way of showing it is a bitch life out there…! So, be preparing to hold it in and lose yourself within! Gosh… this sucks BIG TIME…! Oh well, life is like that and in the brighter side …eventually things will be OK…eventually….!

Cartoons by Andertoons

Experiences VS Academic Credential

2009-03-02T16:10:00.007+08:00

What is important … experiences or academic credentials …? Both play important roles in getting a job… More and more I see around me, employers mostly value experience than academic credentials. Well, academic credentials are also important yet their role mainly serves as a back up or reference. Well, quite true, everywhere you check, all the work vacancies required its applicants to have either 1 – 3 years or more than 3 years experiences. If I had known this earlier… I should have opted for part time job working somewhere and get those experiences. Oh well, it’s too late, I might as well, drown myself ---> literally of course. Well, one thing for sure this humbles me in a way, that I realize being a degree holder does not guarantee you for a job. It’s just meant that you qualify to apply… Arr ok…! Oh shit, so this means that I need to work my way down to up… Hmm…kinky! I guess experience worth a lot these days as it takes time and efforts. Well, what about education + degree, isn’t it all the same. Well, I better stop confusing myself and focus the task at hand!! DUH!

Ps: Patience is a virtue... and in times we will get the job that we LOVE and dying to have ... Nuff said ...!

Online Shopping

2009-03-01T15:20:00.014+08:00

Lately I been so into online shopping.. I have scoured all the blogs of online shopping... I am literally drooling watching all the pretty, wonderful and affordable dress, shoes, skirts, bags and many more... OMG! I am so into it... I could spend hour and hour blog hopping... Yet, the funny thing, I am bit afraid of doing the buying... as...

1. Afraid that the measurement didn't fit me
2. Items may look nice and beautiful in picture, but the reality is quite opposite!
3. All the items I am interested currently sold out----> duh!
4. Also what if my items got lost somewhere b4 it reach me...
5. I am afraid of it being only a scam....
6. I am just being a scardy cat !!!

Ps: Any advise?

Oh......here are few of the items I simply HEART of!

Me as Cikgu BM....

2009-02-23T08:38:00.005+08:00

Me .... as a BM tuition teacher for Form 5... That is amazingly funny. I wonder why do accept the job in the first place anyway. Perhaps the urge to get extra money just blinded me for a moment...! Guess what, teaching BM is not as easy as they thought, totally the opposite of English. I though it was supposedly easy-peasy, Boy, I was totally WRONG! Dumb bell sungguh.....! My students keep on asking me the questions in which I dumbfounded and in the end I just basically "wing it" ....bla...lalalala.... Bloody Mongkay!

The students' ability in BM totally make it worse, some even having difficulty making a fully finish composition ..... Well, I guess that is why the students need extra tuition and pass their SPM with flying colour.. .... and if they fail...it will be on ME! Argghh....NO! I don't want to be held accountable for their failure. I guess me getting A1 for my BM does not really mean I can teach BM! Auch! Currently I am doing 360 turn in learning and doing revision with my BM!

A VERY INTERESTING CONVERSATION

2009-02-21T17:41:00.003+08:00

An Atheist Professor of Philosophy was speaking to his Class on the Problem Science has With GOD , the ALMIGHTY. He asked one of his New Christian Students to stand and . . .

Professor : You are a Christian, aren't you, son ?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor : So, you Believe in GOD ?
Student : Absolutely, sir.
Professor : Is GOD Good ?
Student : Sure.
Professor : Is GOD ALL - POWERFUL ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : My Brother died of Cancer even though he Prayed to GOD to Heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But GOD didn't. How is this GOD good then? Hmm?

(Student was silent )

Professor : You can't answer, can you ? Let's start again, Young Fella.
Is GOD Good?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Is Satan good ?
Student : No.
Professor : Where does Satan come from ?
Student : From . . . GOD . . .
Professor : That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this World?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Evil is everywhere, isn't it ? And GOD did make everything. Correct?
Student : Yes.
Professor : So who created evil ?

(Student did not answer)

Professor : Is there Sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness?
All these terrible things exist in the World, don't they?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor : So, who Created them ?

(Student ha d no answer)

Professor : Science says you have 5 Senses you use to Identify and Observe the World around you. Tell me, son . . . Have you ever Seen GOD?
Student : No, sir.
Professor : Tell us if you have ever Heard your GOD?
Student : No , sir.
Professor : Have you ever Felt your GOD , Tasted your GOD , Smelt your GOD ? Have you ever had any Sensory Perception of GOD for that matter?
Student : No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Professor : Yet you still Believe in HIM?
Student : Yes.
Professor : According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student : Nothing. I only have my Faith.
Professor : Yes, Faith. And that is the Problem Science has.

Student : Professor, is there such a thing as Heat?
Professor : Yes.
Student : And is there such a thing as Cold?
Professor : Yes.
Student : No, sir. There isn't..

(The Lecture Theatre became very quiet with this turn of events )

Student : Sir, you can have Lots of Heat, even More Heat, Superheat, Mega Heat, White Heat,
a Little Heat or No Heat.
But we don't have anything called Cold.
We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is No Heat, but we can't go any further after that.
There is no such thing as Cold.
Cold is only a Word we use to describe the Absence of Heat.
We cannot Measure Cold.
Heat is Energy.
Cold is Not the Opposite of Heat, sir, just the Absence of it.

(There was Pin-Drop Silence in the Lecture Theatre )

Student : What about Darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as Darkness?
Professor : Yes. What is Night if there isn't Darkness?
Student : You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the Absence of Something
You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright Light, Flashing Light . . . But if you have No Light constantly, you have nothing and its called Darkness, isn't it? In reality, Darkness isn't. If it is, were you would be able to make Darkness Darker, wouldn't you?
Professor : So what is the point you are making, Young Man ?
Student : Sir, my point is your Philosophical Premise is flawed.
Professor : Flawed ? Can you explain how?
Student : Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality. You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a Good GOD and a Bad GOD. You are viewing the Concept of GOD as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can't even explain a Thought. It uses Electricity and Magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view Death as the Opposite of Life is to be ignorant of the fact that Death cannot exist as a Substantive Thing.
Death is Not the Opposite of Life: just the Absence of it
Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your Students that they evolved from a Monkey?
Professor : If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes, of course, I do.
Student : Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir?

(The Professor shook his head with a Smile, beginning to realize where the Argument was going )

Student : Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and Cannot even prove that this Process is an On-Going Endeavor,
Are you not teaching your Opinion, sir?
Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher?
(The Class was in Uproar )

Student : Is there anyone in the Class who has ever seen the Professor's Brain?

(The Class broke out into Laughter )

Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's Brain, Felt it, touched or Smelt it? . . .
No one appears to have done so.
So, according to the Established Rules of Empirical, Stable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that You have No Brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then Trust your Lectures, sir?

(The Room was Silent. The Professor stared at the Student, his face unfathomable)

Professor : I guess you'll have to take them on Faith, son.
Student : That is it sir . . . Exactly !
The Link between Man & GOD is FAITH.
That is all that Keeps Things Alive and Moving.

NB:

I believe you have enjoyed the Conversation . . . and if so .. .
You'll probably want your Friends / Colleagues to enjoy the same . . . won't you?
Forward them to Increase their Knowledge . . . or FAITH.
That student was Albert Einstein.

I simply LOVE this..... I got this from Catega.... So I do hope u enjoy this 1 .... Do open your heart and keep ur FAITH strong....!

I Hope You Dance

2009-02-14T22:22:00.003+08:00

I Hope You Dance lyrics

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder,
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger,
May you never take one single breath for granted,
GOD forbid love ever leave you empty handed,
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

I hope you dance....I hope you dance.

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance,
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin' might mean takin' chances but they're worth takin',
Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth makin',
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter,
When you come close to sellin' out reconsider,
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along,
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone.)

I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

Dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance..
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have

By Martina Mcbride

Naive .... me...??

2009-02-11T16:10:00.005+08:00

Naive ..... due to my earlier post, a few close ppl of mine say I am somewhat naive..especially on that topic.... OMG!! Well, to some point ...Yes I am naive. But I think not that naive to make a choice... Perhaps I may not know what the heck am I saying.... and maybe hearing only confessions from those experienced truly it is not enough to back what am I saying. Yet, one thing for sure...as a woman ..am I not be able to make a choice....! I do hope when I have finally arrive at the crossroad I know which way to take....!! Whatever choices I make, certainly it will help shaping my own perceptions and ya.... hopefully mature as a person. Either way, Life is about making choices, living in the choices you take and hope that tomorrow might still be there for you to repeat the cycle once again.....!

Hahahaha...you are what you made of... and I don't mean to offend those (*wink*)..... Still, I respect everybody choices and I do hope you respect my point of view as well... I guess I have enough on people confusing SEX over LOVE..... especially teenagers in LOVE... I guess it is true that "people are blinded by LOVE" !!! Hohoho.... That is so EB pla....

~~~Thank You & Have a Lovely Day~~~

Being Single....

2009-02-09T17:41:00.005+08:00

I found few of interesting Poems through the web of "Being Single"... hope you enjoy it! Wish I could compose one, yet I am too lazy think today!

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Being single … Is being free
Being wild!
An endless feeling of being nasty…
Or an outrageous feeling of being naughty.

Guess who is single?
It ain’t you! ‘Coz it’s me!
Ask me why??
Yeah right, don’t be shy!

I am single coz I am, damn, afraid of commitment
And as well as, tropical and deadly enchantment.
I don’t hate guys…but I hate their mentality…
The urge and goal of them being manly

Their way on how love is proved
Their ways on how girls being forced to do such move.
Being alone is not being single
It’s not losing someone to hold and to mingle.

Because when you’re single
You have all the chance to go on and wiggle.
Friends, lovers, countrymen come and join me…
As I take away the phobia of being lonely

You don’t have to be sad
and don’t be mad
Just be like me…
BECAUSE

I chose to be single
Coz I chose to be free
I chose to be single
Coz I chose to be me!

Posted by eimaj

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SINGLE

by Heather

I'm single.
That's one sentence I'm not afraid to say.
Being single is great.
I wouldn't give it up for a minute.
I'm not saying being in a relationship is bad.
Having someone to love is a beautiful thing...
If you don't have all the problems.
By problems I mean the arguing, the sadness, the heartaches and breaks, the rules, the expectations, the lies and deceit.
Being single means being without all those things.
At least when it comes to having a partner.

I'm single.
And I love it.
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IT'S MY SINGLE LIFE, NOT YOURS

When I was in the world, being alone was never a topic,
Now that I've crossed over, my aloneness is the Headline gossip,
"When are you going to find someone?", "What's taking so long?",
These are the questions that persist on and on,
I reply, "I'm waiting on the Lord, He knows what's best for me",
Some things I don't know but he surely does see,
I wonder why people are so interested in my life,
When, Who, Where, will I find my wife,
The concern is not theirs, but its mine, It's me and my wife who will be sharing the rest of time,
If the concerns are sincere, heartfelt, and meant,
I don't mind people inquiring on how my time will be spent,
Otherwise don't be worried about me being alone,
Instead I urge others to focus on the relationship of their own.

Warren A. Hodge, Jr.
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Single Awareness Day

2009-02-09T12:22:00.007+08:00

Valentine…..Valentine…Valentine…. The day of LOVE they say ---> do we need to single one day out just to profess our LOVE! …. Well, for me…it is my SINGLE Awareness Day!! All the Single Ladies….put your hands up! Let us together embrace it and have fun with it and YES never allow anyone to make you feel inadequate for not being ‘TWO” in this LOVE month festivity!!

Well, this 14^th February I am going to be selfish and indulge myself with few shopping trips….perhaps have a nite out and celebrate Single Awareness Day with my girls. and families. As for couples in love, you may find yourselves in a tight budget situation….oh well…. LOVE surely cost a lot eeeh! Anyway, do have fun and profess la all your undying devotion…. (Duh!), as for me I am happily celebrating my Single Awareness Day…with a touch of wit, wisdom, friends and families!

You do not need to be loved, not at the cost of yourself. The single relationship that is truly central and crucial in a life is the relationship to the self. Of all the people you will know in a lifetime, you are the only one you will never lose.

-Jo Coudert-

LOVE vs SEX

2009-02-09T11:52:00.005+08:00

Every now and then we are confronted about the meaning of LOVE and almost every time we find it is closely related to SEX! Well, our culture --> which is the “proud” Asian culture doomed this “SEX” topic as a taboo subject. You surely will be scornfully nagged if you ever talk this matter in front of the elders and most often they choose to avoid the subject. Well that is another topic, but that is not what I want to say here.

The fact that people today associate LOVE as SEX seems to be nauseating to me. I know “IT” supposes to be liberating way of life as well as a sacrifice that you make to your body for the one you love! God heavens NO! Big FAT NO!!! Nobody should be blinded by LOVE vs. SEX! Love is the feeling --->True feeling you have for that person, how you willingly gave your heart for the other half to cherish and value for all its worth. But, now all I am seeing is that SEX is truly is a must for those in love. Even, the younger generation ranging from age 14 – 18 (or perhaps even younger) are joining in the bandwagon to the “land of lust”!! My….oh my!! Don’t let lusts cloud your view or judgments! It’s OK to give in but there’s a limit to it and know when to say NO! Honestly, guys / boys that say “if you love me, then you should have sex with me” ---> that is not LOVE my dear! He who said that is obviously someone that isn’t destine for you …. He’s just another Bastard who hunger the lust lingering over the sweetness of your delicate body! Think twice before you embark into the “land of lust” Keep in mind “He who willing to wait, are those for keep”! Guys be a gentleman and don’t push the lady into thinking SEX is keeping the relationship going. Well, I am saying this not to preach whatsoever, but hey we are slowly moving toward the land of lust instead of LOVE! We forget that what LOVE got to do with SEX anyway! Even so, as we forward to the land of modernization, we upgrade our minds, body and soul ---> in what ways that apply to us!

Well, I do have few girlfriends of mine, who were living in hatred and anger due to the fact they intimately involved or lost their virginity to some bloody bastard. They can’t seem to get pass that, but hey that is the harsh cycle of life and you do learn best from ‘experiences’ they say! I also do have few girlfriends who were liberated by being sexually active ---> Well, no comment for that, I do respect their promiscuity and yes…. You are …what you made of! As for those of my girlfriends who refuse to give in to lust, congrats and keep on standing tall… Don’t be ashamed to stay that way as it nothing wrong to be a VIRGIN…

Anyhow, think twice ladies, later Regret is not a choice as it is a reality …… and if you in any case say YES …. Choose to go for “GLOVE”! Safety is priority number 1!!

Also, Choose to Profess you LOVE differently on this Valentine Day! And if you already arrive in “the land of lust”, don’t mop around like sad puppy or jump up and down like a monkey got her banana…. Just take it like a pinch of salt ---> Lesson in Life!

Faith

2009-02-01T22:05:00.005+08:00

What is Faith? Does having a Faith means you need to go to church every Sunday just to stay connected or Faith is what you believe in yourself that guide you through harsh cycle of life? I am bit confuse about it as I feel myself is slowly drifting a far and slipping to my own lazy self. Why, I ask myself and unfortunately I am clueless. I come from a family who value spirituality and my upbringing is all about being a good Christian. Every Sunday means going church and profess your faith to Him, plus I active participate as the alter servers in church.

But now, going to church feel like a drag to me, even waking up and getting ready seems like a milestone for me, I do feel like such a bad Christian and religiously I am guilty of that … is it …. I dunno…! I do believe in Him as he is my Savior and I do my best in following the 10 commandments. Yet, just like everyone I am caught in the midst of “duniawi” ! Spiritually I am as low as 5%, still, that is between me and Him….. I do want to get close to my own spirituallity and unfortunately I don’t know how. So does this mean I am less from those who go to church every Sunday and religiously committed? Or does this means I am one step away from being throw into Hell……………..! OMG! God .... little Help here! I guess living as a Christian todays really have its ups and downs, most often we find ourselves lost in the transitions.... As much as we try, we keep falling back away from Him and that is the one thing tha I regret. But I know one thing, although I am perfectly cluesless, I still turn to Him for guidance and comfort., as I know He won't judge me but take me as I am....as they say........

Believe and You Shall Receive

KAMI

2009-02-01T20:28:00.009+08:00

I just saw 'KAMI the Movie', soreee kinda late of watching the last year movie, and I know most people who know me might thinking…”What the fcuk are you doing, watching some Malay movie?” …. Haaahahaha! Well, let’s just say I am changing my ‘angin’ for a while! Basically my little bro introduced me to this movie and I was forced to watch as I was too bored with nothing to watch and do. So, oh well…! But, hey it was ok bah the movie and I truly found myself liking it, kinda suck since I didn’t follow the drama at 8Tv. At least, the movie was better than Dunia Baru the movie. Honestly I have been a fan of the drama since season 1 kick off. I do hope the movie should be the conclusion of the drama. Yet, the movie not only sucks, it doesn’t live up to my expectation as a fan! The joke was lame and stupid and there is no kesinambungan dari jalan cerita drama ke movie dia. Duh, which is why I don’t believe of Malaysian movie, especially those who claim to be the best movie of the year----> soree, still kind of angry bout the DBTM !

The Good and Bad of the movie

Good

1. Script was good as it really depict how we young Malaysian truly speak to one another but in a more ‘clean version la’.

2. The soundtrack wasn’t all that bad and nice to hear a fresh new sound from the Malaysian underground scene –> Indie band. Heck it’s even better than the buble gum pop play nonstop in the mainstream media. Except for that 1 song, in which the singer ‘teriak2’ … ntah apa-apa…sound like a devilish pula.

3. I love how this movie portrayed bit of our Malaysian dysfunctional families and for that I believe Malaysian entertainment scenes are slowly moving forward towards a quality of “modification”. Go Malaysian Entertainment scene!

Bad

1. Storyline dia slow sangat la and I feel like it was kinda a drag to watch it. I mean I couldn’t wait for the movie to end and that feel like eternity for me.

2. I miss out on watching the drama, so I guess I was kind of blur bit bout the whole movie.

3. The actors seems bit stiff .... but their face does look like teenagers, rather than the actress in '5 Jingga' ---> Muka tua sangatla... x sesuai jadi bdak2 pom2..!

"Hidup ini palat, tapi esok masih ada" --> Love this word!

Thought of the Day!

2009-01-19T16:19:00.014+08:00

Well, I just found this interesting blog... I found it to be thoughtful and truly an eye opening. Well, lets just say, when she mentioned she wants to try and like Obama, but she can't... really say a lot about herself as a person. Still I really admire of her courage to say she is NOT a believer of Obama, well everybody is entitled for their own opinion right and she totally done her best in standing firm in her own ground! Ya, I do wonder how come Obama 's inauguration cost almost $150M and in times of economy crisis now, that is like over the top, isn't it? Oh well! Niway, do check her out at - http://majorityoftwo.blogspot.com/ - u'll be surprise, I sure did and I love it!

Well, I do wish I have the same courage like she is, I wish I could talk about politics or whatever happening in and around Malaysia, especially my anger towards the system, politics or ...etc... People have ask me to express my opinion regarding that matter in my blog....Still, as much as we want Malaysia to be democratically open, we will then have to face some harsh backlash later! In a way, we are held accountable for whatever we express verbally or in writing! See what happen to the Chinese guy singing the 'NegaraKu' anthem using his own words, and the worst part, you, yourself might end up in ISA. and the whole nine yards... Who wants that, I don't. I know I have a long way to go, learning and falling all at the same time, seems to much to bear. So that is why I refrain myself from mentioning any racial, politics nor religious matters in my blog. Who wants to add fuel in the already burning fire! Plus, we can always go for MalaysiaKini to get another perspective bout politic in Malaysia.

Like Jo had mentioned in her blog, I quote - " I often think of blogging as being similar to the little Russian matryoshka nesting dolls, where inside one you will find another, and another, and another ... That is the beauty of blogging. Click on one link, and it leads to another, and another, and another ... I have found blogging to be a wonderful way to find out about other people all over the world -- their lives, their customs, their ideas, their hobbies and interests, and their likes and dislikes. The one thing I have learned is that, the more differences we have, the more we are the same. Somehow, I find that very reassuring."-

I agree with her and yes I do feel the same way yet she explain better in writing.. Hahaha...so now my dear cuzzie what do think about that! Blogging as waste f time..??? The jury is still out there to prove you are guilty of being ignorance....!!! One way or another, life goes on right!

So cheers to all.....

AJL - 23 (Highlights of the Night - Tru my own eyes)

2009-01-19T10:36:00.008+08:00

Faizal Tahir rock the night away especially in his song “Coba”, love the song, the voice and style – bit gothic and emo like. Who said an ex-member to a nasyid group cannot rock. He sure was so rocking it last night.

The 2^nd song was also good, especially the gimmick, quite new to Msian stage. Well, getting his hair cut in the middle of the stage and in the middle of his performance really nice, plus the fan and the choir thing, he surely deserve to win the Best Performance last night. Basically, to win the best performance, you don’t have to bring the whole kampung with you; all you need is a good storyline, creative gimmick and applicable to stage performance. Well, either way, congrats to Faizal Tahir on winning 3 categories last night – Persembahan Terbaik, Juara Kategori Balada and Vokal Terbaik ( well, this one is arguable, still congrats to him ayway). He is simply superb last night! Love to seem him winning something since his last year “shirtless incident”.

Estranged and their gimmick was good as well. They are the champion of last year and surely they do have the pressure to perform well. But, hey their performance wasn’t all that bad, except I feel something not click with them last night. I was bit disappointed on Rich’s voice projection, it’s either the mic problem or him! Nevertheless, they definitely rock and I love their song. Plus, I was rooting for them and Meet Uncle Hussain to take the big prize and I am glad MUS won last night.

Ayu should do better in her performance wise! Standing in the middle of the stage and make limited movement spell nothing but B.O.R.I.N.G! She should have go and take a few notes / pointer from Ziana Zain.

Then, what’s up with Heliza ‘oh-so red’ lipstick! Really it didn’t match with her make up and her whole outfit. She should have done better, mind the make up artist; sometimes the artist should have their own knowledge about make up and know what’s look good for them. But hey, last night she looks like 24 going for 35!

Aizat – Love the song and his simple performance. I won’t say it was soulful and deep, still he has that star quality in him and him writing his own song surely a bonus for this newbie. I do hope he will continue to shine and entertain all us with his own made song. So, Mila & Mawi, who? Step aside all AF winner wannabe – except for Vince and Stacy la.

As for our own favourite darling Stacy, well let me give the low down:

i. Make up - Funky

ii. Dance routine - SMART & energetic

iii. Attitude – Cheeky

iv. But the Gold Pant - Honestly I am not so sure la… Err… Fashion Faux Paux – Ohh well, whatever that make her world go round.

----> All in all, she brings the house down in terms of her showmanship. She can be consider as a pro now and yes our little darling from Sabah really proves she is a force to be reckoned with!! I do hope she got a good management that will oversees her career all the way and truly I hope she will stay longer in Malaysian music scene.

Meet Uncle Hussain – I really like the song – catchy and listenable! They really impressed me last night, simply superb! At that exact moment I honest have butterfly and really thought they deserve to win. The performance was simple yet the singer really tear up the performance, his voice was so powerful and energetic and it would be great if he could take the best vocal category. The underdog seems to be opening lots of people’s eyes that night. They deserve standing ovation from the audiences, especially those sitting in the front rows.Oh well, we Msian have trouble getting up and clapping hand pula tu, lupa saya!

The music + orchestra + sound system = Super Fabulous, Superb & simply the best! -------> They were the real highlight of the night!

The priceless look on their face when they were announced as winner was soo sweet and I was genuinely happy they won. Well, when Ally say something like “seperti yang dijangkakan, Juara Lagu AJL 23 ialah.. penulis Taja, Tass dan Lan…. OMG! It was Meet Uncle Hussain instead of Faizal Tahir, that was so good. Really surprised MUS, as they were looking at Faizal Tahir and he was looking at them. Hohohoho…… really good Ally, which was suspense and climax all at once! But what’s up with Taja sort of picking / touching his noise while giving his speech… seem awkward and yucky! Go Independent bands! Next Year --- Pop Shuvit.

8. Poor Elyana, her voice was really drowned by the sound of music. I can’t really hear what she was singing! All I hear, “kalis rindu…….kalis pilu” …….on…and….on…… I dunno! Kesehan her!

9. The performance done by the kids was ohhh so entertaining and cute especially the boy name Haqiem. The end the performed Isabella with Jac, M.Nasir and Jamal Abdilla, it was good! 3 adults and 3 kids all singing in tune and good was rare in Malaysia and they really ROCK!

In my opinion…..chewah:

Artists in Malaysia should have the ability to compose a good song not just good voice in singing! If they have that – that is a full package! I do admire artist who wrote their own song and it just make them look extra talented and gifted…. Hehehe… ! I guess Malaysian artists, especially those who are currently popular in Malaysian mainstream music industry, they should be more like that and not solely dependable on songwriter.

PS: All the pics r courtesy of gua.com.my

Me & Frustration

2009-01-17T22:17:00.005+08:00

I hate the way the K***N management of KK handle the staff's' salary... I mean its a bit weird... for us to get a higher pay, we need to do all the worksheet .... imagine u need to finish & do all 20 book of worksheet. The worksheet are 10 pgs per each book! Omg! My hand was so freaking tired after I am done with all of it... 1 Level is finish but hey there are still 5 more Level to go!! Shit! I feel so drain pl, even though the WS seem to be easy... yet after 2 hour... I feel not so clever pn..!!! Dang! I guess 4 us to do the WS will hopefully help us the teacher to be familiarize with the things we will soon teach 2 the students! Argh!!! Why aa the salary systemn are like that. The frustration seems to be growing each day and I been quite patience with it! I love to speak my mind about this with the managemant, yet everyday is a busy day at the center. After 2-5 hours straight of handling kids, I am drained... All I need is R&R to recuperate. Well, I know it's a lame excuse ..but that's the fact!

Another thing that bother me is the fact there is not enough parking space for teachers / staffs over there! I mean... what the heck, the parents are given the 1st priority to use all the parking spaces ... Bloody idiot! I mean, I know they need to keep the parents happy... what about us ... the teacher... where is our priority... HELLO! So, its okla for our car to be park everywhere, and what happen to it, it is all our responsibility! Sux! Bloody .... ******! There are plenty of bleeping words which I want to express but reserve it on the ground of rationality!... Argh.... Parents my f****ng a** ---> except my parents la (love them & I will follow them)!!!

I am now determine to look another job, bcz I know I won't able to hold my frustration long in there!! Help me! Still, nobody will be harm in the process f me holding it in! Hohoho...

My dream

2009-01-12T16:27:00.003+08:00

I used to have a dream of being a politician / be involve in politic directly. Yet, seeing how things have gone through especially the political scene in Malaysia, it did scared me. Literally I prefer to stand on the sideline and just be a cheerleader ... with a brain la of course.

But as time passed and the world go around, I realize I want to be a teacher / an educator to the young minds......chewah.....shaping the young generation into a breed of useful, practical and visionary people also my dream job...Hehehe! At the same time, I also love writing and I wish I have the opportunity to learn or take courses of writing . Writing and expressing my feeling into words is also one of my passion and it would be good for me to learn the right way of writing. So that, I might improve my writing skills and my use of words.

Well... lets hope for the best! 2009 here I come....!

Hmmm..... Life's like that

2009-01-12T14:31:00.004+08:00

The other day, my brother and sister teased me as I keep on repeating that I am deprive of love! They find it funny and try their best effort to poke fun of me! I was embarrassed by that... OMG! The situation started when my lil brother was all lovey-dovey --> apparently he has a GF & that is why la he was all weird like that! .... And I open my big, bad mouth & flatly say I am deprive of LOVE!!! How dumb was I, it was like standing in the middle of a war without any weapon at hand and totally like a sitting duck for them. Their combination really silent me up and I am not usually the quiet one, most of the time I do put a great effort in fighting back even though I know I might lose! This time, hands down I was defeated.

But then it did hit me back, I realize that I always take single as a lonely number, it is like I’m portraying being single to be the saddest part of being a human. Gosh how shallow can I be. I think I am every bit of human, capable of feeling the loneliness, sadness, anger & frustration…..in every single way. At times, I feel it is better to be 2 than 1, at least you feel you have safety net beside you and the sun is shining brightly. Well, as if! I guess my Asian tradition is finally caught up with me and I believe I was stung by the wedding daze that I had attended recently. In a way, it did alter my perspective about single-hood.

Looking at my big sis, she definitely knows how to hold her ground for the base of single-hood. But it tends to be like that after a bad breakup and who could blame her to go “career woman”. I would, but then I am currently stuck in a dead end job and I wish I could put my passion into it. So good luck for me…..yeah!

Either way, I learned a thing or two from my sister’s and brother idiotic and stupid remarks. The fact that I need to embrace my single-hood with head held high instead of mopping around like a sad puppy.

Oh well, life is like that and now I am baby stepping to my first goal of being single ---> which is to take it proud and confident as well as make peace with it. I guess TWO might seems to be the perfect number, yet at times being the single one out does not seem all that bad! It just a matter of perspective and two idiotic siblings keeping you on your toe! Duh!! If anything that I am currently deprive of, it have to be my Good Night Sleep.... !

My Family

2009-01-12T13:41:00.006+08:00

The other day, I watched “My Big Fat Greek Wedding” shown at 8TV. That was fun and it did hit home as my cousin said watching the movie reminded her of our own big and loud family. I do agree with her, except the spitting part la of course. Our might curse, scream / shout at each other, yet we are not the spitting type especially towards each other. Hahaha ….

Well, my families are big ad loud. We always talk and laugh out loud, so funny, but that what we are… just bunch of talkative and loud bunch of people. I do love the moment when all of us gather in one roof eating and just talk whatever topic that comes into mind (as long as you don’t talk about borrowing money – that’s another ball game!). Anyhow, love that moment and I miss those moment. Oh well, there will always be next wonderful Christmas and Chinese New Year or anyone of us in the family getting marry around this year. That should be interestingly fun and funny! Basically, families are those bunches of obnoxious and crazy people that you hope to avoid from time to time, yet at times, you needed them to keep your foot on the ground and keep you stay connected.

Half of the Families ( 2 many 2 put inside here)

Survey...

2009-01-12T11:47:00.005+08:00

[01] Are you currently in a relationship?

[02] Have you ever been given a rose?

no.. but does card with picture of roses count….

[03] What is your all-time favorite love story movie?

Love Truly & Never been Kissed

[04] Are you in love right now?

no.. but i hope 2.. someday…not 2day la of course

[05] Do you believe that everyone has a soul mate?

I think so!

[06] What's your current problem?

Damn UNITAR haven’t release my final result for Sem In Edu

[07] Have you ever had your heart broken?

huhu.. yes!

[08] Your thoughts on online or long distance relationships?

Online NO, distance rltnship, done it experienced it & hate it.

[09] Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?

I think so, but then I realize we better off as friend … friends with benefit ..of course …hahaha

[10] The person you're with right now,do you want to spend your life with?

My family …of course la….. Other than that, nobody special in particular.

[11] How many kids do you want to have?

2 ( 1 boy + 1 girl ) ..... Family planning kunu...

[12] What is/are your favorite color/s?

Pink and Green

[13] Who is your celebrity crush

Shia LeBeouf

[14] Do you believe you truly only love once?

No la every1 deserve to try it more than once, so that it helps us to differentiate between the ugly frogs to our charming prince.

[15] Imagine you're 40 & your spouse just died, would you get re-married?

It depends whether I am stable enough or do I have kids… Either way love come when we least expected. So never say no…only time might tell.

[16] Do u believe in love at first sight?

Oh yeah

[17] What song do you want to be played at your wedding ?

Secondhand Serenade (fall for you) …. Any kinds of song, as long as it resemble the romantic-ness of the Wedding.

[18] Do you like anyone?

Currently yes.. I like anyone, as long as they are with smile and humour.

16 Things You Ought 2 Know Bout me....

2009-01-05T05:08:00.014+08:00

1. People say I'm such a snob ... but actually I'm just cold and have problem communicating with people for the 1^st time. As you get to know me, you will realize I am just a goof ball like everyone else.

2. I used to be a tomboy that dislikes being "doll-up", but now I LOVE it! Well let’s just say I'm a girl that loves PINK now & dressing up is part of being a girl.

3. I can be such a Bitch when I’m in a bad mood and lash out on people.

4. I might portray myself as tough, independent and serious on the outside, yet I’m just a doted girl that like to be pampered and yes soft at heart.

5. I don’t wanna be thin, I just wanna be a new healthy me and appreciate my body now. Embrace it and not running from it.

6. I have a thyroid problem. But I’m so glad it I finally able to balance my TH level.

7. I use to think I have weight problem but I realize I have Love issue ---> Love of myself. So I am embracing myself one day at a time... baby step!

8. I love speaking up my mind and quite talkative as well. But at times it didn’t hurt to be hypocrite and play your card right.

9. Love may come softly and I do believe every girl deserves a prince charming, but for now, I’m not seriously searching one and if it happens, it happens. All I need to do is dive in the open sea and swim with the barracuda.

10. I’m sick and tired pretending to be happy all the time in which I’m not. Everybody deserve a bad day here and there.

11. I love my family yet at times I find them to be amazingly annoying. Well, you can hate them but I know they will always there for me in times of need. So …muah…muah…muah to them all.

12. I love my friends to bits; they are like my extended family. I give my trust and loyalty to them. But once I am cross, you will never see nor hear from me again.

13. I love scaring and surprising people, it's soo funny and it crack me up all the times. But the irony is that I scare easily.

14. I take Oprah Winfrey as my 2^nd God…hohoho.. Who wouldn’t right! I just love her show.

15. I will like to take on exercise as my healthy regime yet I found myself sleeping through the day. Hahaha… so lazy laaa…! Still, I need to put as my 1^st priority!

16. I wanna do my 2009 differently. That is to be more healthy and happy me. In that way, I might able to enjoy my life more.

Blogging ...a waste of time ?

2009-01-01T21:24:00.004+08:00

My cousin just complained to me the fact that I love to blog a lot, he thinks that I am wasting my time and think its rubbish. I am offended by his remarks. I guess some people can be quite the opposite and rude. As in his case, everything that didn’t make money will be view as a waste of time. Urgh…. OK…. Whatever! I guess me and him have a different type of approach and perspective in life. So I can’t blame him being a hater and ignorant bout blogging! People are like that and yes Ignorance is a bliss.

I love to blog since I find writing my thought and mind can be refreshing and a way to communicate what I feel inside. Most of the time, verbally transmitting my mind and thought seem to be hard for me and at times I am lost in translation. I know not everyone will read my blog, so what! I love blogging and I don’t care if nobody read it, just as long as I can see and read it in my blog, it is fine by me. Argghhh….. I guess I should focus on my other passion that is food review. I do love eating and I love going to different restaurants just to try a variety of foods and drinks. Nice, think I should put that into action …... sooon!

New Year

2009-01-01T20:46:00.002+08:00

2009 is finally here and congratulation to all for becoming older and surviving the 2008! Hopefully this year will be a new beginning for all that just freshly starting out and get what you all wish for. Anyhow since we are on the subject of New Year, everyone must have their own New Year resolutions to be accomplished. At this point of my life, I am torn between Money and Career or Love. But then I decided on Money and Career as I want to have a stability in my life and capable of providing for myself or being self-sufficient! As for Love, I already given up on that long time ago and I guess no need to put my full attention to it now, plus if it happens, OK, but if it didn’t so be it, it’s not the end of the world! Anyway, the need to get a job seems to be the most important thing now; I do hope this New Year I can be accepted to work as a teacher in the government school. If that really happen I can surely say à I made it!

Argh…. So much pressure for the New Year! I hope this year will be a prosperous year for me and since I am greedy little pig … I want everything that I wish for to come true. But of course only talk will bring me nowhere, yet with efforts and my will power it should open new door of opportunity. Aiya! Life seems to be very harsh and tiring these days and I hope I can survive it! More power for the new graduates!