Eliz_roxZ

Sarang He YO

noreply@blogger.com (eliz_roXZ) — Wed, 30 Dec 2009 08:15:00 +0000

I was really touched by the celebs stories of their fathers ... So, I wud like to say........

"Dad ... I am sorry for not being a good & obedient daughter. In future, I will in my utmost best repay back all that u have gave me. Thanks for being such an awesome father 2 me... I LOVE You!

Family....

noreply@blogger.com (eliz_roXZ) — Tue, 29 Dec 2009 07:37:00 +0000

I just found this story online... So, I think better share it with all of you.....

Baca slowly dan penuh penghayatan.

Aku terlanggar seorang asing semasa berjalan, "Oh maafkan saya, saya tak perasan"

Katanya "Maafkan saya juga, Saya tak nampak saudara"

Kami amat bersopan dan saling menghormati, Kami saling melambai sambil berlalu pergi,

Tetapi di rumah lain pula ceritanya, Bagaimana kita melayan orang tersayang, tua dan muda,
Lewat petang, tika memasak makan malam, Anak lelaki kecilku berdiri di dapur secara diam-diam,
Bila berpaling aku hampir melanggarnya jatuh, Jerkahku, "Jangan buat kacau di sini, pergi main jauh-jauh"
Dia berlalu pergi, hatinya hancur luluh dan beku, Aku tak sedar, bertapa kasarnya kata-kataku,
Sedangku berbaring di katil mendengar musik, Terdengar suara halus datang membisik,

"Bila bersama orang tak dikenali, Begitu bersopan dan merendah diri, Tetapi ahli keluarga tersayang, sering dimarah dan dicaci",

"Cubalah kau pergi lihat di lantai dapur, Kan kau temui bunga-bungaan berterabur",
"Itu adalah bunga-bunga dibawanya untuk kamu, Dia memetiknya sendiri, kuning, biru dan unggu",
"Dia berdiri senyap agar jadi kejutan buat kamu, Kamu tak pernah sedar airmatanya yang datang bertamu", Pada tika ini, aku merasa amat kecil sekali, Airmataku mencurah ibarat air di kali,
Senyap-senyap ku kebiliknya, dan melutut di katil, "Bangunlah, anakku, bangunlah si kecil"
"Apakah bunga-bunga ini dipetik untuk mak? Dia tersenyum, "Adik terjumpanya belakang rumah di semak"
"Adik memetiknya kerana ia cantik seperti ibu, ibu tentu suka terutama yang unggu,
"Maafkan ibu, atas sikap ibu hari ini, Ibu tak harus menjerkah kamu, sebegini,
Katanya,"Oh, ibu, itu tak mengapa, Saya tetap sayang ibu melebihi segala,
Bisikku, "Anakku, ibu pun sayang kamu, dan ibu suka bunga itu, terutama yang unggu,

FAMILY

Adakah kamu sedar, sekiranya kita mati hari ini, syarikat tempat kita berkerja akan senang-senang mendapat pengganti, dalam hanya beberapa hari?
Tetapi keluarga yang kita tinggalkan, akan merasa kehilangan kita sepanjang hayat.
Dan sedarlah, sekiranya kita menghabiskan masa kita kepada kerja, Melebihi keluarga kita, adalah merupakan suatu pelaburan yang tidak bijak.
Bukankah begitu? Jadi apakah maksud yang tersirat?

Tahukah anda makna "FAMILY"? FAMILY = (F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER (I) (L)OVE (Y)OU

" HARGAILAH KELUARGA ANDA "

Blessed Xmas & Happy New Year

noreply@blogger.com (eliz_roXZ) — Tue, 29 Dec 2009 05:41:00 +0000

I know...I know... Im so lazy for not being committed in udating my blog from time 2 time... Ekekeke....Anyway.... I know its bit late ... but since I am still in "Christmassy MODE" ... so Merry & Blesssed Xmas ppl of the especially Sabah!!! Hohoho... This year I found myself giving more instead of getting more... Hmmm... Oh well, at least I make my lil bro smile from ear 2 ear....Hehehe... Btw, have you all notice that not so many Christmas ads / commercial on TV... Kinda sad bh, I only saw 1 only ... itu pn iklan KFC... other than that ...mcm TEDA! Sian... mcmnala ini mo jadi 1 Malaysia klu teda keseimbangan dlm distributing commercial yg mempromosikan Christmas / Natal!! Every year pun like this.... !! Dank! Where's the equality!!

Ohya, New Year is around the corner ... are you all prepared for a new beginning of the year of 2010! As for me I'm looking forward for a more positive 2010... I pray... everything will fall into places and I shall succeed in everything I do .... Amen!! SO ppl .............................

~~~ & ~~~

~~~~~Mari kta buang sial bramai2 mandi laut... Ekekeke!~~~~~

noreply@blogger.com (eliz_roXZ) — Tue, 29 Dec 2009 05:38:00 +0000

I have a new pet peeves … I call him M****L! I dunno, I cringed on the sight of him and there’s this uneasy feeling swelling up inside of me! Everything that he does just annoys me …. More…. And …… moreeee! Ppl advised me … or perhaps forced me to sort of respect and be nice to him for my sis ‘s sake. I try … God knows .. I try…!! Urgh… I guess it’s a sister thing to feel this way! In addition thanks to him … I got scolded by my family! Gosh, how I was fcking mad & unhappy! Those nasty SMS my sister sent me was truly hurtful. She chooses to believe him and refuse to get my explanation!!! I was surprise as out of the blue they were attacking me, claiming I hurt his feeling through my FB status! Bloody hell… Can they not be so judgmental and sooooooooo bloody dumb! At least get my explanation first, don’t just assume. This is what wrong with ‘them’ sometimes, they take it toooooooooo personally, without even analyzing it and they straight away go for the kill ... For sure la the person yg dorang hentam pn mati kutu la… All of the sudden kena bomb without any warning. But that’s not the real issue here!! The real issue here is that who matter most ~~> Family or the 1 you love (bf /gf)? For me, my loyalty belongs to my family …then…him!!

If “this sort of situation happens”, I will be like an adult call the person and get his / her explanation before jumping into any conclusion and straight away attacking by sending malicious SMS! Words are much sharper than the knife… literally we won’t die by it… emotionally we are scars for life. True they say, we need to forgive and forget… but in this matter how will you move on when the damage had already been done…. “Sorry” might be sufficient enough to heal it..! Put your pride aside!

My advice to that person and her beau … I respect ur choice in choosing him. But be fair la … No matter how much you regard me as a burden.. I am still ur family, we went through a lot… only we understand what..! I would also express my deepest regret on how behave towards you and him. I might be a bitch as in the SMS u sent me… but this bitch had been with you the day you turn 1. Choose ur loyalty wisely and again… BE FAIR! Your world does not revolve around only on him! Here I admitted, I cry when I read the SMS you sent me. But the only thing you say to me when you get the facts was ~~> “mana la ak tau, da yg ckp bg2, mcm 2 kta seri la”! WTF, not even a single “SORRY” from you or him…!!!

I do know by posting this in my blog.. You will get mad and hurt… but I ask you again… “Can you really put the blame on me…??? “ Lately, every time we talk we tend to get aggravated even the littlest thing … So what’s the point of talking when we know we will leave in anger! I’m tired of fighting again & again… ! I know ur a big girl… bigger than me even … so be considerate, thoughtful, be alert on your action and ur words… I will in return do the same.

As for him, I dunno what to say, she’s with you isn’t it. So stop the tantrum and have faith. If you were meant for her… then fate will do the rest. But do play FAIR…Don’t make her have to choose sides! As for me, you get my respect and eventually I’ll get a new pet peeves. Plus, whenever you read something, read it again until it reaches to your brain ~~>process it ~~> analyze it ~~> react!!

Hello there

noreply@blogger.com (eliz_roXZ) — Thu, 10 Dec 2009 03:08:00 +0000

Ya ... I know...its been a while since ly last~~last~~last updates... Kinda occupied with lots of things 2 do, things still yet to be done & stuffs still stuck in my head...! Duh, that's life isn't it...with all its glory and troubles (well, they do come in package).

Btw, I want to share something which I found to be interestingly entertaining. I simply love it. It is actually a beautiful stop motion film made by the brilliant Carlos Loscano. I guess deep down everyone simply longing to be love or be in love. Yess, life can be so lonely sometimes and friends might be nice yet it doesn't compensate the longing rooted deep in our soul. As for me, I've been single for quite sometimes and always close my heart from any advances by guys ... in away this stop motion film really bringing back memories of yesterday ... "though he might be gone from my life, why should I punish the rest for one person's mistake". I believe its time for me to open myself up and just be happy. Hahaha... Any taker (lmao)...??? So ppl enjoy & don't get teary on me now...

This is courtesy of Youtube & if u r interested feel free to view Carlos Loscano page at ~~> http://vimeo.com/carloslascano

Selamat Hari Raya

noreply@blogger.com (eliz_roXZ) — Sat, 19 Sep 2009 03:23:00 +0000

Just want to wish all the Muslim around the world ...Selamat Hari Raya @ Eid ul-Fitr... and Maaf Zahir Batin. Drive safely to your hometown (Ingatla orang tersayang)! Remember to give some "Duit Raya" to the kids .....Again, Have a lovely Hari Raya celebration and enjoy yourself!

Niway, I personally can't wait to go for "Rumah Terbuka" / Open House around my kampung ... Which means ~~> Good Food + Good Campany = Good day ! Yummy~~mummy!! Can't wait to have a marathon of eating!!

Park Jaebum (Jay Park) Fan Song - Waiting For You

noreply@blogger.com (eliz_roXZ) — Fri, 18 Sep 2009 08:58:00 +0000

I guess fans of 2Pm is emotionally dying slowly due to Park Jaebum's decision of leaving 2PM. It definitely rock the K-Pop world and Hottest everywhere just won't be the same.

Honestly, this is the 1st time that I take interest in Korean boyband such as 2Pm. You see, Jay is actually a leader for 2PM and due to recent controversy, he decided to leave 2PM and return back to USA!! (For further details, you all can google it) It is sad - sad thing as I love 2PM. What more can I say, I love watching their crazy antics in Wild Bunny and seem genuinely enjoying themselves. Plus, their song and dance was simply awesome! It is a shame that a simple act of ignorance will turn a person's life upside down. Either way, I am hoping for his comeback to K-Pop. I do Have FAITH on Jay!

Btw, here is a song + MV made especially for him. It was simply heartfelt and truly nice effort from the lovely fan.

You're a loser, Time to Become a Winner

noreply@blogger.com (eliz_roXZ) — Fri, 18 Sep 2009 07:46:00 +0000

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Time to make big changes and if you want to see big changes in your life then start by making BIG CHANGES. Do something that has tangible results today. Do you have a messy apartment, house, or bed room? CLEAN IT NOW. Clean it perfectly and don't stop till it looks like it belongs in home and garden magazine. Do you still live with your parents and you're 25 or 45? Put together a plan where in 1 year you will have you're own place and be self sufficient (I would suggest asking your parents for advice, or even better, have them hold your money for you because you can't save money worth a damn). Also, start getting some sort of therapy or see a life coach. You are really down on yourself about something and you aren't quite sure what it is. Once you figure it out you will be the type of winner you see yourself as and it will happen a lot quicker then you think! In order to become a better person than you are right now you need to be proactive in moving forward with your life. Find a better job... What ever you do, though, don't go back to college, because that will give you an excuse to stay in your current situation. Travel somewhere, the simplest trip to someplace other than anywhere near where you live will help inspire you, even if it's just to spend a few weeks in a new town a few hours away. Time to make something of yourself and there is no better time then now!

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These words really HIT me big! I feel like tons of bricks just fall flat on my face! Gosh, that’s so sad and I do agree wholeheartedly for all of it!

I believe I need to take responsibility of what happening around me, well instead of blaming and bitching about my life, I should be bold and brave enough to make a change. I need to change myself especially on how I view the world and myself as a person! Yup, its time to make a change in my life and progress forward as well as be POSITIVE! Like they always said, when life gives you lemon, you make lemonade...!! Lalala.......

Nevertheless, I am looking forward my a new prospect in life! Yup, I do believe I can... YES, I CAN! Wish me luck!! :) Hope for the best!

WTF!!!

noreply@blogger.com (eliz_roXZ) — Wed, 09 Sep 2009 08:24:00 +0000

I jz read this news article straight from Yahoo.com.! This is so outrageous and a bit too extreme! I mean c'mon la people, it is good to be patriotic and all, yet to attack Malaysian students who happen to study there is nothing to be proud of! There this thin line between patriotism and being to extremist!!

Honestly a mistake had been made in the clip and both parties had actually step up and appologised personally and globally for it!! Moreover, there is a reasonable explanation behind this unfortunate mistake and still why are people being ignorant about it!!! Why the anger! I don't understand & honestly I don't get it, are people over there are so hateful towards Malaysian? Whatever it is, this really make me juz want to postpone my trip there!!

Either way, I love being Malaysian and proud to be 1! 1 Malaysia !! Much love to both nations.... and I believe ... its better to make love ... not WAR!!!

Btw, here is the extract from Yahoo.com!!

JAKARTA, Sept 8 (Bernama) -– The Malaysian Students Department here has advised Malaysian students in Indonesia to take care following reportedly rising anger among a small group of people over slanderous reports by the media of late.

The department has sent an SMS message to advise all Malaysian students to avoid using Jalan Diponegoro here.

The anger among the small group of people seems to have reached a serious stage following recent media reports and visuals of more than 360 people having registered as volunteers to "crush" Malaysia.

Today, a group calling itself "Benteng Demokrasi Rakyat" (BENDERA) threatened to use sharpened bamboo on Malaysians using Jalan Diponegoro here.

It was reported that 50 members of BENDERA armed with these "spears" forced people using the road to show proof of their identity with the intention of detaining anyone who was Malaysian.

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STUDENTS-ADVICE 2 (LAST) JAKARTA

This act of taking the law into their own hands was reported in the local online media, including detikcom.

In one incident previously, rotten eggs were hurled at a house rented by Malaysian students of Gadjah Mada University in Yogyakarta by a group of demonstrators comprising local undergraduates who were angry at Malaysia for having allegedly "stolen" the Pendet dance which originated from Indonesia's Bali island.

Following that issue, which was fanned by the local media and linked to past issues, several groups of Indonesians demonstrated in front of the Malaysian embassy here.

Malaysia stated that it had not "stolen" the dance for a video clip tourism promotion, which was actually produced by a private company based in Singapore, but the explanation seemed to have fallen on deaf ears.

The okezone website reported that BENDERA had conducted checks on more than 100 people using Jalan Diponegoro.

Detikcom reported that no Malaysian had used that road and that the checks, which were to have been conducted for one hour, ended just after 30 minutes.

LIfe

noreply@blogger.com (eliz_roXZ) — Mon, 31 Aug 2009 20:03:00 +0000

As August came to an end ... I do wonder what September might bring... and all these while I've been putting such a brave face ... finally anxiety & all the worries sink in... Urghh... How I dreaded this part of being human....

Well... I hope there will be more happy post to come after this....!

Hmmmm

noreply@blogger.com (eliz_roXZ) — Sun, 09 Aug 2009 09:17:00 +0000

I know.... I know...its been so long since my last update... Well, what to do since no Streamyx in my aunt's new place .. tpaksa la tahan hati mo log in ...

Let me see.... what's new in my life right now...

I am quitting my job!!! Dunno what is my next step, but I do hope everything will go well.... eventually! I guess, I am just so bloody tired working there...emotionally and financially drain, plus my heart is not there. I guess, when you come to a point where you hate the job, why stay.... just leave & move on.
Yesterday I went for my PTD Gred M41 Test... Gosh that was draining as it took a day to complete. Imagine, the test was divided into 5 Section (A,B,C,D & E)... so I have to sit in the HOT classroom from 9am until 4.15pm... but we do have our rest though. Anyway, I think I did ok with my test with exception of the Math's part. Oooo...Emmmm...Geee... I was totally confuse with the Math questions and the worst part we could not use calculator to calculate! Bloody tiring, dahla ak ni bit "bingung" in Math and they have to make it pretty challenging by telling us to use our minds to calculate...dengan bijaknya ak mgira smbil "menembak" jwpn...!! Ekekeke.... It is also interesting that I have to do a 300-500 words of Malay Composition. Tp terer jgala ak mhentam using my sort of broken Malay. I even asked Fiona what is cinema in Malay....buduss... !! Yet, I do hope in some weird Universe way, AKU LULUS!!! Lalalala..... Oh heck....!!!
Hate drama...especially silly drama unfolding in my life.... I just need to move on and be positive.... God give me strength to be brave & patience.
The best is yet to come.... Finger cross... I believe ... rezeki datang dari DIA and not from People....!
I am having cramps rite now... adeh!! Love being a woman...yet this pain is killing me....softly!

Being 2nd

noreply@blogger.com (eliz_roXZ) — Mon, 08 Jun 2009 11:21:00 +0000

Few weeks ago I saw an argument between a son and a mom… which cause the son trying to push the mom and end up the mom storming away. It was something you wish you didn’t see in a Sunday afternoon. What a scene, I was dumbfounded seeing how rude the son was and I wanted to hit the son who happened to be my nephew straight in head. But, suddenly it hits me, back when I was at his age I was no difference and I get this strange feeling of deejavu.

Growing up I wasn’t actually a poster kids that parents are proud of. I had this big curly hair, my skin was quite dark back then~~> mostly due to the constant outdoors game with my besties. That was fun, going in and out of my kampong doing everything dangerous and straight up stupid! No wonder my mom always scolded me for always coming home late at night! Well, what can I say, I was naughty, headstrong, and most of the time rude compared to my other 2 siblings. Hehehe!

Going through adolescent, I struggle a sense of belonging as the second child of the family. I think being a second child really been a struggle for me. You see, I wasn’t always the favourite nor was I the loveable ~~> compare to my older sister and my youngest brother who have their own perks. As for me, I love to view myself as the odd one out, always up to no good, causing trouble, rioting and rebelling towards my parents. I feel like no one believes in me and no sense of belonging whatsoever. In order to be heard, I always do things against my mom’s order and everything that she said no. I guess now looking back, it was totally rude of me, yet it was just the best thing to do as a second child of the family to be heard.

But, I am proud of myself for being able to keep my head straight ----> I guess I wasn’t as bad as I thought so plus I think I wasn’t brave enough to destroy myself completely.

There are few things that I had done which I am not proud of; such as my fair share on drugs (which drugs …let I be a secret 4 me). In my defense, I was young, stupid and I fall for the peer pressure to belong in a group. Plus, back then or probably until now, drugs are something that you can get easily and cheap throughout my hometown and I myself have a friend who was a pusher, in which she was kind enough to give me a try on her product!! I still remember vividly the first time I tried on it, felt like I was in cloud nine, so blurry yet soooo GOOD! I am lucky to realize that I was an IDIOT to do it in the first place, if not I might end up being an addict!

I realize friends play an important role in my life back then. For they are my comforts and people that I share the common bond. I have all spectrum of friends that I could hang out, they made me feel belong and safe. Unfortunately, like anyone else I fell for peer pressure and start doing things that I thought by their nature was cool and fun, by then I realize I was far off from where I was. Slowly over time, I lost my senses and rationality.

At the same time, I was doing all of that stuff just to get away from my family, somehow I felt like I needed my own space and being with them suffocate me. Truly, I felt lost between my siblings and I realize I couldn’t compete with them in the race of affection from my parents. Like they said when you couldn’t get any affection from home you search elsewhere outside. As for now, I could care less, with or without my parents I am still going to live my life because this is my life, my only life, so why do I allow silly thought destroying of what I have at this moment. But, I am happy to say that my family and I are at a good place now, we have a weird way of loving each other yet we are happy in our own weird way.

I believe growing up we all face all types of struggle only you yourself understand. The fact that we rely solely on your friends in order to deal with the struggle, truly they feel like heaven for you, regardless whatever impact they have on you. When you feel like no one understands you and you feel left out, friends are the one you go for the TLC instead of parents. Might I say, they don’t understand us like a friend does! Well, that was what I am feeling when I was going through that phase of adolescent!! Back then, I do care about my family yet I care more for my friend… shallow right… well being a teenager is like that and eventually it does grow out of us over time.

Thinking back, I realize I was young and dumb, I couldn’t grasp the thought of me losing my senses and done all of those senseless things. I guess that’s the process of growing up, trial and error! In some way, I do feel I understand what my nephew going through and all he need right now is affection, attention, the need to be heard as well as a friend to listen. But hey, who am I to judge anyway!!

~~~> "Life is just one damned thing after another" - Elbert Hubbard<~~~

My sweet lil brother

noreply@blogger.com (eliz_roXZ) — Wed, 15 Apr 2009 12:55:00 +0000

As I saw you today, I feel the sense of relief seeing you all grown up looking so big and tough on the outside, yet I know deep down you will always be my baby brother that soft at heart. It is like in a blink of my eyes, everything about you changed. I saw you are slowly being oh so sarcastic, making jokes that weren’t so funny, nasty remarks or cursing here and there…. Sadly at times I found you to be a jerk and a rude little karabau!

I don’t know how could my sweet lil brother turned out to be this ‘boy’….. A boy that I sometimes despise and honestly, I just couldn’t figure you out! What happen to you, I miss my sensitive, sweet and loveable lil brother? I do miss the times when we bond, talk, laugh and share secrets together.

All in all, I say this to you my sweet lil brother, it is okay. I love you nonetheless; I am here through thick and thin with you as family stick together. I guess this is a way of you growing up, maturing in your own senses and finding your own true self. I do hope your mind and soul aren’t that tainted by all the negative surrounding that you see and hear in and around KK, as I want you to grow up to be a man, man with manner and knowledge. Till then, don’t grow up too fast … take a little time to look around and God bless you in all that you are.

My unending legacy of "blunders"

noreply@blogger.com (eliz_roXZ) — Tue, 14 Apr 2009 17:13:00 +0000

Reading back most of my post in my own blog really an eye opening for me (the owner), I found so many mistakes in spelling, grammar, repetition and punctuation. It was actually embarrassing to see all my blunders laid open for the whole to see and read..! You see, I am not a big fan of proof reading, as I find that part to be boring and strenuous. I had this tendency of not reading back of everything I wrote / type as I find it to be quite awkward. But, I think it usual for all people to have this problem from time-time and I guess just because I have a Bachelor in English does not mean I am good at proof reading. Oh well, at least I am able to convey the message across. I do apologize for all the blunders, slip up or mistakes that you might have detected or found upon reading my posts. But hey, life too short and you can’t always be too damn perfect!! …. If you few comments or critique on my spelling or my grammar ---> feel free to complaint, who know as you proof read my posts; I might as well return the favor back to you. Together we will make or write grammatical posts….. Ho3!

Tomok ---> U roxz at OIAM!

noreply@blogger.com (eliz_roXZ) — Tue, 14 Apr 2009 03:55:00 +0000

Watching Tomok performed “Aku Cinta Padamu” last Friday really proved he is the 1 to beat. I was completely entertained by his energetic showmanship and he definitely raises a bar higher for other contestant to follow. I guess he wasn’t all that stupid as last time as you can see he has some music talent that allow him to survive in the entertainment industry. Last time if you had told me Tomok could win the One In A Million, I would have laugh and say “as if”. Now, I believe he deserve to win the competition as his performance has been quite consistent and entertaining every week.

Tomok, came so far from his early year as the front man of New Boyz. Their songs totally boring last time, just hearing his band song in the local radio really make my ear bleed. I also remembered his scrawny, thin stick figure and his ‘balah tengah’ hair ---> definitely not something you go for in a guy. I believe those times only my friend Z*ri** was all over him.

Watching Tomok on TV, really bring back memories of my schoolmate, Z*ri**. Well, the year was 2000 and I was in Form3. At that time, New Boyz was a big hit among the local Malay girls and my schoolmate Z*ri** was one them. She in fact listened and talked nothing but New Boyz everyday. It was quite strange that she could come up with day to day information about the New Boyz and particularly Tomok. She was like an ‘info bergerak’, everyone who knew her, know she could sing the New Boyz songs by heart and kept a diary of her undying love for Tomok, which she carried around school.

Long story short, Tomok eventually replied back to her fan letter and it was the beginning of a funny story. Well, she parade and showed off the letter to everyone in the school and said she was his number 1 fan as Tomok acknowledged her to be one. Surely back then all the girls who was into Tomok was jealous and the boys just got annoyed by her. One of these boys was Helmi. I guess Helmi was particularly tick off by Z*ri**’s antics, so he decided to stole Z*ri**’s diary during recess. Heheheh… He then decided to read the diary page by page to the whole class, we were laughing out loud and make some.... “uhh….ahhh..fewiit….adidih”… noise..! It was so damn funny and yucky at the same time. I know we were so naughty but we were young and keen on making fun of others. As Zuriah walked in the class, she was so damn furious….. What happened next totally go down as SMPO most memorable memories (4 me la)… Bulih-bulih ni 2 ekor budak bkejar-kejaran sampi ke tengah padang, with Zuriah running and yelling at Helmi. Dahla, si Zuriah berbadan chubby and watching her ran across the field was damn hilarious. Bayangkan la, tengah-tengah panas, ujung-ujung time rehat, dorang 2 bkejar-kejaran around the field with both yelling at each other ----> kalah2 dalam filem Kuch Kuch Hota Hai. Everybody around school was totally transfixed their eyes to this evenful event and everyone were chanting either Helmi or Zuriah. What the heck, P&P was disrupted for a while, sampai our guru discipline also turun padang to go after them…. Hahaha… Last2 dorang 2 kena jadi contoh pasangan yang x patut di follow. Helmi was dubbed as hero, while Zuriah was the unlucky heroine; both became a celebrity overnight around the school… Hahaha. The sad thing was that Z*ri** was hit hard after the incident, she become remote, so distant and somewhat revengeful, as I watched tears rolling from her face that day, I realized she was forever changed after the whole incident. Shortly after our PMR was finished, she moved to Labuan, according to her, she wants to start fresh somewhere.

Fast forwards to 4 years later, I met her in Sipitang, she looked so thin and all her extra pounds were gone. She wasn’t the same “chubby and fatty” Z*ri** that I once knew. I don’t know how to explain it, but she was different.

I guess being the “punching bag" of the whole school can cause lots of damage to a person self esteem as well as their personality. I feel bad and guilty for being a part of bully committees. Although I did not do anything harmful to a person back at high school, still being a member of the bully committee really something that was not to be proud of. High school can be crazy and such a roller coaster to everybody and I am lucky to escape it with only few memorable scars. Gosh! !

AF 7 vs. OIAM 3

noreply@blogger.com (eliz_roXZ) — Mon, 06 Apr 2009 09:55:00 +0000

Well, I just saw Akademi Fantasia pnya concert... I mean, what a shock seeing both Sabahan contestants got the lowest votes and ultimately kna kick out of AF! Hmm...kesian pla.. skali kena kick 2 orang pla.. Moreover its Sabahan ppl! I thought Sabahan ppl are so into AF7, so what happen now seems to be a sign that even us the Sabahan ppl are getting pretty bored and tired of watching the same old boring Akademi Fantasia.

I mean come on la... the tagline "transformasi" --> apala itu?? I couldn't get my head out of it... Transformasi ... apala yang kena transform, apa yang sa nampk hanyala same old, same old boring stuffs! Tgk psembahn peserta AF7 kali ni really make my ears bleed, mcm tgk ptandingan karaoke….and too bad this karaoke competition will last a few months more and I don't now about you all, but I had, had enough of karaoke singer...! Knapaka plu diwujudkan AF7 ... I guess Astro should spend their money into something that is much more lucrative as they are slowly losing money due to the elaborate production of Akademi Fantasia. I guess they should use the money to revive the already "bancrupt Maestro" and better yet producela album si Mas tu ---> Sian da!! Itu lagi penting ---> to save the entire artist under that management and foresee their career...! Oh well, I guess, they still have more money to burn...!

Lagi 1 yang sa mo komplen la, asal ja sa curi2 tinguk itu Diary AF mesti sa ada nampak students da nangis2! Apala, hal kicil pun mo kepoh2...then bawling their eyes out for stupid & simple matter! Pastu bazirkan masa untuk settle kan the problem..! Kalu la dorang ble btindak productive, cubala dorang bincang mcmna mo improve psembahan buruk / boring, mutu suara and anything which closely related dengan performance on Saturday night! Puas ati jg kta menonton...! Apala ...kebudak-budakan sungguh! I guess, AF is changing from a singing competition to a popularity competition! So mungkin pentingla kali the peserta menangis cam budak!! Kali inila transformasi yang they ol going for…! Less quality more quantity!! Sayang ni, I truly love the previous 1, 2 & 3 pnya AF, after that, it started to go down hill! To much dull gimmick bah!! This season is no difference!

I truly advice all of you to watch the OIAM 3 ---> this one surely won’t disappoint you. Watching the contestants’ talents of singing truly mesmerizing and better yet their ability to play with the music arrangement definitely a plus! You truly feel like it was a concert. There are few favourites of mine in the OIAM 3 ----> our darling from Sabah, Esther (I call her my mum), the not so stupid Tomok (hehehe, he surely prove that he is the 1 to beat) and the dark horse ---> Nine!! Can’t wait for next this Friday… But the thing that I am disappointed is their fashion style, look a bit mumsy (especially the peserta wanita), quirky and most often unflattering to the contestants! They should have pun an outfit suit with the song pnya character. Tapi this fashion stuff, I think AF7 is way better la… Only the girls’ pnya outfit red and white singing the AF anthem ---> plik bh pl itu, plus the guys’ ketara ni wear too much make up..! Blame the black guy who looks so grey!

Semalam..di K. Kinabalu..

noreply@blogger.com (eliz_roXZ) — Mon, 06 Apr 2009 06:49:00 +0000

Last night, as me and my cousin went to pick my aunt in the early wee morning hour; I have the opportunity to overlook around K. Kinabalu city through the hill. Even when all the shops or complexes are closed and people are soundly asleep…. The beauty of K.Kinabalu with all the lights illuminating all around and was mesmerizing. At the same time, look oh so peaceful and quiet. The roads were particularly quite and I was bump that I didn’t get to see people racing their cars.

Out the blue, there was this stupid guy driving this red Kenari with plat number SAA 210* K was trying to race with us. I mean cmon la we were driving fast in order to get to our destination faster not to race with you la… Idiot! I guess the poor man’s ego was injured as he couldn’t bear losing to woman’s driver…. Duh… Tulungla...!

Nevertheless, I am missing my night life…back when I was active… Now…. Huhuhu…. B.O.R.I.N.G!! I guess I am on that stage of my life... Living in a rut!!

Confession in S.Heart

noreply@blogger.com (eliz_roXZ) — Wed, 01 Apr 2009 09:50:00 +0000

Last Tuesday, I went for my confession in the Sacred Heart church. You see, it was a year ago since my last confession, so I was a bit nervous and anxious altogether. As I wait for my turn I was counting my sins in this 1 year. Miraculously, 5 major sins just cross my head. Ya, I know strange right, only 5 sins… I got to be kidding. Well, that’s the only major sins that manage to come up to my mind. It was quite funny as I was reading the book in trying to memorize the words or procedure of confession. I do feel bit light as my burden of sins somewhat being lifted. I do feel good!

But the things that manage to rain on my parade, simply the attitude of the warden in charge during the confession. Gosh, come on la warden… we are all in the house f God, could you at least be nice, kind and speak in manners and in a nice tone. There is no need to get mad due to some confusion and being a push-over. I don’t mean to be disrespect here but how am I suppose to respect the house of God when its occupants act and behave ill-manneredly.

I guess sometimes just because we are all in the house of God, doesn’t mean that all the people are pure and kind hearted. Well, that is why la when the confession season arrives; you will see a flock of people rushing in and out of the church to confess and I am one of those people.

I realize the wardens are all human with the tendency to get mad easily, yet, couldn’t them be a bit nicer especially in the use of words and actions. We are all civilized people here, so why not act like one. Like the slogan goes “Budi Bahasa Budaya Kita” and we should exercise what we preach….!

But I do pray in the coming Easter, we are all united as one brother and sister in Christ and have faith.

Boys Over Flower (Final Review)

noreply@blogger.com (eliz_roXZ) — Wed, 01 Apr 2009 02:10:00 +0000

I just finished watching the last 2 episodes of Boys Over Flower at the mysoju.com. Finally after months of waiting, it comes to the end and I am glad to say I am done with that drama…. Hehehehe…! Now, all I have to wait is to wait for the VCD / DVD out in our local stores.

So far the last 2 episodes were ok and I must say they manage to twist and turn the storyline and I am satisfy with the ending of the drama. Overall, the production team had managed to inject lots of dramatic scene and it is obvious they are trying to keep it fresh and different from the other 2 versions of this drama. Still, nothing totally surprises me watching the last 2 episodes, I guess I somewhat could guess it already and it is nothing different from the last 2 version of this drama.

The thing that I love about the drama’s ending is the fact that Goo Joon Pyo waited about 4 years to finally bend on one knee and purpose to Jan Di. It’s kinda realistic and practical as all of the characters got their own career going on. So, it’s about time. I love the scene in which he bend on his knee and purpose, it is kinda sweet and romantic.

There is also a few scenes that I found a bit hanging and somewhat didn’t click to me. Such as;

1) The kissing scene seems to bit fake and force. It didn’t ooze the feeling of both characters are madly in love.

2) The CPR thing---> eeeh… Surely I think the CPR is not like that. That is not how you revive a person who almost drawn.

3) Whatever happened to least famous character of F4 (Song Woo Bin) ??---> I really wanted to know what path he chooses or his career choices in this drama.

Too bad the 3 stooges who continuously taunt Jan Di during her high school fail to make an appearance … I would love to see them screaming in agony watching Jan Di happily together with Joon Pyo ----> yet unfortunately one of the girl died after committing suicide. So, I guess they decided to cut out the 3 characters out altogether.

The one character that I totally fall for have to be the lovable, cool, sweet and loyal, Yoon Ji Hoo, he is soooo cute, I can just drool just by watching over him. The scene that he cried after failed attempt to capture Jan Di’s heart totally heartbreaking. You just want to hug him and say…. “I am here Oppa” ….. “Sarang nge yeo”. Oh well, only in my own wet dream……. Hahahaha!! ----> Budus.

Well, overall it is an OK drama, (got few high points and few low points), even though, I am not entirely satisfy with it, Boys Over Flower really do showcase what Korean are best for, such as to inject lots of romantic feature, (in which the Japanese version fails), cool gadgets, nice soundtrack, wonderful scenery, lush taste of style and most definitely ….. lots of pretty boys / men that we can ogle with. But, I still do think this Korean version could have done better, I mean, sky is the limit for them, they could have take the bar higher and too bad it didn't go as high as I hope it did.... Hmmmph! Good try though, and I do encourage fans of Meteor Garden, and Hana Yori Dango to watch this drama, well, just to widen your taste ya!

PS: On the other hand, I still prefer the Japanese version though ---> Hana Yori Dango 1, 2 and the movie...!

I wish...I wish!

noreply@blogger.com (eliz_roXZ) — Mon, 30 Mar 2009 17:08:00 +0000

This is a tag by sweet-girlicious . As with all tags, here are the rules :~

1. Make a list of what you want on your birthday
2. The list should be 10 numbers
3. Post the image of this award in your posting
4. Give it to 10 friends of yours

My birthday wishes for 2009 :~

Get a steady job with RM2k ++ pay ---> Job that I can utilize my knowledge and ability..!
Less "ignorant, rich bloody son of a gun" people in the world...
Be more passionate about life!
Own a Swift car!!! Oh...puhleeez.....
A trip to out of Malaysia... Philippine, South Korea or N. Zealand ...
A new pair of Transitions spectacles ... I love to own 1!
New dress, new shoe & new handbag ---> Prefer branded 1!
More patience towards people around me and the environment...!
Less talking & more listening!
Socially active.... again.... Urghh... My life currently fill with boredom and frustration.

Oh well... that's my bday wishes... but I insits to add sumore... Hehehe...My blog...my say!... Well, I would like to have an exclusive performance by Linkin Park....which I could meet and greet them..>!! Plus, meet the cast of Boys Before Flower (Korean version)! --> If only wishes can come true... Oh well, dreaming is what we human are best of!

Global Earth Hour

noreply@blogger.com (eliz_roXZ) — Fri, 27 Mar 2009 17:19:00 +0000

I just read an article in Daily Express (Friday, 27 March, 2009) about this group / Gerakan is doing a wonderful campaign of promoting the program of “Global Earth Hour”. According to the leader, they are distributing 10,000 flyers for the residential area around Kota Kinabalu. Well, the flyers are about 2 pages, which include all the information about the program and simple illustration about global climate. Good effort in educating K.Kinabalu people about the importance of making a global statement of concern about climate change and to demonstrate commitment to finding solutions.

What bothers me most is the amount of flyers distributed in the process of promoting this cause. ... It is an Earth Hour, isn’t it … Could we at least save the papers for the benefit of trees around the world especially those in Malaysia. I mean the more paper we waste or use, means more trees are going down and the climate surely will go higher. So why not save the paper and find new alternative for spreading the cause of the “Global Earth Hour”! Plus, I don’t think everyone will take their time reading the flyer, even if they do read, what happen after they finish reading? Surely you won’t expect them to save it and there is a high chance it might end up in the trash. Knowledge is power they say, but in this case I don’t think it totally help in educating people about the “Global Earth Hour” by using this method.

But, hey…take it from me…do participate in the “Global Earth Hour”, we might save ourselves another decades of living in this earth before hell break loose…. ! Remember 8.30pm – 9.30 pm ……

Human

noreply@blogger.com (eliz_roXZ) — Wed, 25 Mar 2009 07:00:00 +0000

Just the thought of losing someone which is close and dear to us simply makes our heart screaming in pain….. But to really… really loose that person is even painfully heartbreaking and sad. At that exact moment we will then realize how easily life ended these days. Nothing is for certain these days and as human we can only walk our life with the hope that we leave a mark in someone’s life somewhere and that we somehow make a difference in this world. Hopefully, someone might miss us and might remember us just the way we are. Even so, I pray that my love one shall live their life healthily and be content of what they already have.

Honestly, life shouldn’t be this complicated but hey who am I comparing to HIM… I am only a humble dancer dancing the night away until He decides to take me out. Even so, I hope I shall live my life to my utmost best ….. --> ((emo)) <--…..

This totally reminds me a song from the ...

Killers (Human).

I did my best to notice
When the call came down the line
Up to the platform of surrender
I was brought but I was kind

And sometimes I get nervous
When I see an open door
Close your eyes, clear your heart
Cut the cord

Are we human or are we dancers?
My sign is vital, my hands are cold
And I'm on my knees looking for the answer
Are we human or are we dancers?

Pay my respects to grace and virtue
Send my condolences to good
Give my regards to soul and romance
They always did the best they could

And so long to devotion
You taught me everything I know
Wave goodbye, wish me well
You've gotta let me go

Are we human or are we dancers?
My sign is vital, my hands are cold
And I'm on my knees looking for the answer
Are we human or are we dancers?

Will your system be alright
When you dream of home tonight?
There is no message we're receiving
Let me know, is your heart still beating?

Are we human or are we dancers?
My sign is vital, my hands are cold
And I'm on my knees looking for the answer

You've gotta let me know
Are we human or are we dancers?
My sign is vital, my hands are cold
And I'm on my knees looking for the answer
Are we human or are we dancers?

Are we human or are we dancers?
Are we human or are we dancers?

Me and my ...Korean drama

noreply@blogger.com (eliz_roXZ) — Mon, 23 Mar 2009 14:49:00 +0000

Here it goes again... me and my Korean drama obsession ...Well; I am currently into this Boys Before Flower -- drama (Korean version). It’s quite interesting watching the same storyline from different versions of countries. You see, I had watched the Meteor Garden 1 & 2 (Taiwan version), Hana Yori Dango 1, 2 & the movie (Japanese version) …. and….jeng..jeng..jeng…now the long anticipated Korean version. Gila ni, I have been following this story from mysoju.com and KBS world (Channel 303) all these while and I can’t seem to get enough of it. I can’t wait for the VCD / DVD to come out. Surely, I will buy it and hopefully my mom wouldn’t find out that I waste my money yet again for some Korean drama vcd…!! Ladida!

Niway, based on the 3 versions, I still like the Japanese version best as I find Domyouji quite funny than Jun Pyo ….! Plus, the Japanese version is more anime like funny and they stick to the same original storyline of the original comic.

By the way, the Korean version also quite good, especially the actors (super-duper cute, handsome and buff up), and actresses (cute and better than the Japanese actresses), at the same time showing off many ‘to-die hi-tec gadget’ ---> my mouth got so watery to see all the gadgets in the drama. Simply to-die for! Oh, did I mention the fashion sense also better than the Meteor Garden, simply fashionably stylo. But, I do wish the actors' acting wouldn't be that visually stiff. There was a few moments when their acting became quite stiff and somewhat unreal....

Anyhow, the thing that I love about Korean drama is mostly they have this capability to inject the romantic aspect in most of their drama that most audiences are so into it. I mean, if the Italian can be regard or portray as the romantic people of the West, then Korean are the romantic people of the East!!

Well,I can't wait for the conclusion of this drama and see the twist they made for the Korean version.... Can't wait..... !! I do hope Gaul and Yi Jung will eventually be together...!!

Yummie....yummy.....

Still, like I mention earlier, I am definitely into the Japanese version of the entire 3 version…. Who doesn’t like the obnoxious character of Domiyoji in Hana Yori Dango, as well as the hilarious, simple and poignant storyline! The only thing that bumps me about the Japanese version is that I couldn’t get the romantic effect from the Japanese version. I mean there are several scene that worth kissing and left nothing but 2 characters hugging it out!

We can't forget the Meteor Garden 1 & 2 ...which started it all! I think I fall for this 1 first before the other 2 come out...! Oh well, happy watching....!

My oh my...!

noreply@blogger.com (eliz_roXZ) — Sun, 22 Mar 2009 05:48:00 +0000

I just read this news from Seoulbeats and Yein Jee's Asian Journal - about a young Korean actress died of committing suicide. It is quite strange as currently if you are following everything about Korean Entertainment, you might realize that there is a strings of suicide commits over last year and this year.

Wow... it is disturbing to read that the death of the latest suicidal victim;

" - Jang Ja Yeon - "was beaten and raped" - Jang was initially ruled to have ended her life because of stress/depression, but the situation took a sudden twist following revelation from Jang’s ex-manager, Yoo, that Jang’s suicide was a conspiracy. "

Reading the news simply making me sick, hopefully those who were said to be involve will be take to the court and punish by their wrong doing..... "help bring change in the entertainment industry they desperately need" (seoulbeats) .... I do hope however the deceased shall be revenge and let her soul rest in peace!

Honestly, we are living in a morally corrupt society nowadays... even the entertainment industry seems to be the mere mirror of our society! I guess the entertainment circle can be quite dangerous especially for the newbies these days. My oh my... this make me wonder ... does Malaysian entertainment industry operate same like the Korean entertainment industry??? Oh well... whatever...!

Family Matters

noreply@blogger.com (eliz_roXZ) — Mon, 09 Mar 2009 15:11:00 +0000

Here are 2 situations which worth pondering…..

1^st Scenario

Let say, the ship you are riding together with your wife and your mother are about to sink. Unfortunately, the Captain just took the last life jacket and off he went into the sea. You, yourself should be able to save yourself as you can swim, too bad for those 2 as they didn’t know how to swim. So, what do you do? Who would you give your life to save…? Will it be the caring mother who nurtures all your life or the wife who is the mother of your son?

2^nd Scenario

Marriage drama

Wife: Honey, apala ur mom tu myibuk saja hal rumahtangga kita! Your family tu lagi kaki penyibuk, hal rumah tangga kta pn dorang mo kepoh, taula kita macamna mo urus. Btul tak honey?

Mom: Kami bkan sibuk, cma concern about kmu dua pnya well being. Kalu sdh thap halau2 ni, family ada hak masuk campur untuk mdamaikan / myelesaikan mslh… Is it a bad thing trying to help .. I am not here to create chaos, I am not some ALong, I just want to tolong! Kalu itupun x ble... hmmmm....

Husband: ????…bingung…

So husband which words will you choose to listen?

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I have the opportunity to see the drama unfolds and listens to different kind of views from my families. To see my families trying to intervene in hopes to settle the drama as well as teaching the wife a lesson or two about respect for the husband as well as the in laws, truly a heated drama that is worth more than the Sinetron on TV! Yet, unfortunately… niat murni my family kena tolak bulat2 oleh si husband yang juga merupakan our family.

From my point of view, families have their rights to intervene in this particular marriage! I know I am not yet near to be a parent or still being regards as “budak-budak”… however, being 1 of the Brady Bunch, I do feel the heat whether to join the intervention or stand on the sideline. I choose to be the latter; still, I have 2 eyes, 2 ears, 1 mouth and a mind of my own… and that surely why I need to express my mind about this matter. Since I can’t talk to him face to face, at least I could somehow reach him through my blog.

I believe it is unwise for this person to say his family being too “kepoh” and “pyibuk” for trying to help in settling his marriage problem. Auch, that is shockingly painful to hear from his mouth. I mean come on la… There’s a few things that I wish to highlight here;

1. No family will waste their time to ruin the marriage of its members for the sake of revenge or saja suka-suka mo kepoh!

2. The wife need to learn a tough lesson of respect! Respect kepada the mother in laws especially and ya the husband! Saying that the wife “TIDAK PERLU” minta maaf dengan the mother in laws simply a NO-NO! BIG FAT MISTAKE! Gosh!

3. It kills me to see my aunt worries and cry about this matter…! Bloody MONGKAY!

4. I for a fact have no respect towards the wife, sepa suruh kurang ajar to my mum and my aunt… she worth zero in my eyes!

5. Family will always be family… We do stick together…especially when 1 of the members is in trouble. The others will empathize and do whatever they can to help out. But, don’t be too proud to accept the help being offer to settle the matter. You weren’t born alone nor standing alone during your marriage with her. You have your family to back you up, celebrating the joy, grief with you as well as standing beside you in time of your need.

6. Kes men halau-halau ni kes berat tau… ! U need the extra help…... and ya.. u need to wake up smell the coffee!

7. If you want us the family to stay away from your own personal problem…..sure…. Imagine this… When you decided to get marry, is it a one man show or is it a family thing? Who decided to spare their time and come to make the wedding a success, who decorate and cooked for it…? We … the family … who were there … making one of our family dream to be a husband come true….. I guess all that probably forgotten by you… Oh well….!

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In life, there’s a time when we will reach this kind of crossroads. The only difference is the situation, timing, people or places….yet the theme is still the same “Making a choice”. When you arrive at the crossroads, will you be ready to be a man and make the final decision. In this drama, I already seen his choices … and it is outright brainless…! Cmon’ la … it is time to face the music and dance to the music of your heart!

I guess at time we do find it hard to admit that we put our spouses/gf /bf /friends first before our own blood relatives especially our parents in particular. Is it because we find them to be needy, super boring and most of the time interfering our personal space and life. Either way, being too selfish for our own happiness has its own repercussion. When we do realize our own ignorance, it might be all too little too late. I guess watching this drama unfold in front of me really taught me a lesson about the thin line between family (parents) VS our gf / bf / friends. Which 1 should you be prioritizing more? …. Most often we fail to find the check and balance between both subjects. In the end, we put the latter first and neglect our own parent & family!

Oh well, at least I realize marriage is not just about you and me alone…. It is about you, me and both our families as well…! Never overlook the value of family and its roles in our life. Gosh…what a roller coaster life it had been for all of us... ! I do think I am somewhat becoming disrespect of marriage institution... Either way... that's life in the modern world.... Like they say, if you cant take the heat, get out of the kitchen!

By the way, I know it is kinda harsh, but I only express from what I heard and saw.... Whatever happens ...happens... All the best....! Though, I do appreciate the fact that you don't attack me during your drunk episode ... !

PS: This will be the last time I will be talking about “him & his marriage drama” … I am retiring this topic and surely this will leave him at peace…!